Introduced (Reece Bibby fanfiction)

Chapter 39

"She what?"

"Wait, Alice, seriously"

"Shit are you okay?"

"Why didn't she tell me?" I could hear from both outside of the room and inside. I curled up and buried my head in my knees.

"I think that's something you better ask her" Lynsey said. A few seconds later I heard footsteps and felt the couch beside me sink slightly as someone sat down. They wrapped their arms around me and kissed the top of my head. I guessed it was Reece.

"Sorry" I whispered quietly, my head still buried in my knees. Reece hugged me tighter and I heard shuffling as the rest of the lads stood up and went out of the room to give me and Reece some privacy. I could hear them muttering outside the room. I blinked away a few tears and looked up, now resting my chin on my knees.

"I'm so sorry for not telling you" I said, looking at Reece.

"There's nothing to be sorry for, you've done absolutely nothing wrong. I should be sorry for not noticing anything more serious was up. Why were you scared to tell me though?" He asked, pulling me closer to him.

"I don't know, I was scared that you'd think different of me, judge me because of it or think I didn't try and stop it. But I did, I really tried to get him off but I couldn't. I didn't want you to think I was dirty and then not want me anymore." I said, wiping tears that were falling from my cheeks. I turned and snuggled my head into Reece's shoulder and he placed his hand on the back of my head, stroking my hair.

"I'd never think that, you know I wouldn't. I know that you wouldn't have just let it happen and I don't think bad of you or think you're dirty or anything like that. I love you just as much as before and this doesn't change anything, I promise" Reece said, lifting up my chin and giving me a quick kiss.

"But it does, everything's changed hasn't it? Nothing's the same anymore and I can't cope Reece. I keep thinking about it, about everything. It just keeps replaying in my head and I can't stop it. And then my mum isn't any better and she's not going to last much longer by the looks of things. I'm just so worried about everything, about us too. When I heard you talking to the lads the night before we went to London saying you couldn't stand to see me like this anymore, well I can't stand being like this anymore. I really can't do it, I just want it all to end. I don't want to see my mum die, I don't want to go back to college and I don't want anything else to happen. You're the only thing that's kept me going over the past year and I know it's hard on you. I just feel like the longer I feel like this the worse everything will get for all of us and I just feel it would be better to end everything now. I just don't want to live anymore, I'm so sorry Reece." I stood up to walk out of the room but found all of the boys standing in the doorway.

"Let me out" I said, wiping more tears from my face. No one moved.

"Just let me out, please" I sobbed, trying to push past them. Casey, who was stood at the front, stopped me getting through and then pulled me into a hug. I broke down crying into his shirt and felt someone take my hand, which was hanging by my side.

"Alice you'll be okay, just come and sit down and we can talk about things, calm down okay" Casey said. I pulled out of the hug and pulled my hand away from whoever was holding it, looking over to see it was Reece.

"I don't want to talk. I don't want to do anything anymore, I'm done" I muttered, trying to push past all them again. It was useless. I turned around and walked over to one of the couches and fell onto it, sobbing. Reece came and sat next to me, putting his arm around me and pulling me close to him. The other boys came and sat on couch or floor around us.

"Right, we know you've had a shit year and you've had it rough lately, especially with what we've just found out, but everything will sort itself out" Barclay said, sitting on the other side of me. "Next year we'll make sure you have a better year, it's a new start and just try and leave everything from this year in the past. We'll all be here for you, like we always are. We love you so please don't leave us. It would hurt all of us, especially Reece. I don't want to see that, I don't think any of us do" he said.

"I'm sorry, I love you all so much, I just feel so shit all the time" I said. I reached up and kissed Reece and then gave Barclay a hug.

"This might make you feel a bit better then" Chris said, passing me the envelope that had my name on it. I opened it and pulled out 9 tickets, one for each of the lads and me. I looked down at the top ticket which had my full name on it. It was a plane ticket for Portugal, one of the places I'd always wanted to go to. I looked around at the boys and they were all smiling.

"Two weeks in February, me and you on our own for the first week and then the boys are going to come for the second week" Reece explained, showing me one of the other tickets. "One big Christmas present from all of us, we thought you could do with a break and what better way for that than a holiday." He said, grinning at me.

"Thank you so much, honestly this an amazing present. Thank you" I said to all of them, smiling a little. I stood up and gave each of them a hug before sitting down again and snuggling up to Reece.

"We just want one more promise from you though, and then we'll stop nagging you I promise" Charlie said. I nodded and he carried on. "No more cutting before the holiday, and you tell us whenever you feel like shit so we can try and cheer you up and make you feel better okay." I nodded, looking down at my knees. That wasn't going to happen, I wouldn't last that long.

"You still owe me the rest of your blades that you promised as well, I haven't forgotten" Reece said.

"I'll go and get them now" I muttered, standing up and walking towards the door.

"I'll come with you. I don't want to leave your side after what you said before" he said, coming to stand next to me and taking hold of my hand, squeezing it.

"Well hurry up so you can get back down here and we can start this new year party" Casey shouted as me and Reece walked up the stairs and everyone's families went back into the living room.

A/N

Sorry for not updating regularly, I've been meaning to finish this chapter off for days but I just haven't got round to it and then some stuff happened that completely took my mind off this so I apologise for only updating like once a week. I'm trying to update as much as I can but I have mock exams starting this week and then real ones in May so I'm just revising like mad (sounds weird bc it's only March but I just have so much stuff to learn). It's the Easter school holidays soon though, so I'll try and update a bit more then.

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