Introduced (Reece Bibby fanfiction)

Chapter 31

I went to step forwards but 8 pairs of hands pulled me backwards. They'd been ready for that. Someone pulled me into them and wrapped their arms around me. Reece.

"Babe it's okay. You're okay" he said, holding me tight.

"No it's not okay. I can't do this anymore. I can't do it. Just... Just let me die, please" I cried, my voice cracking on every word.

"No babe, no. I'm not gonna let that happen. I promise you it will be okay" Reece replied, kissing the top of my head. I pulled away from the hug.

"You don't understand" I said with tears streaming down my face. "I can not cope with any of this anymore. There is nothing for me to live for and I want to die. I deserve to die. I have done for years and someone always has to come and stop me. I just want to be happy and lead a normal life and I can't do that and it's breaking me. No one cares anymore, no one ever has done. I am a piece of shit and everyone knows it and all I want is to end this life filled with bullshit but you won't let me. Yes, you's are probably the only good thing in my life and I'm grateful for that but I can't take this. I'm sorry, please just let me do this." I stumbled towards the wall and fell to the ground, every bone in my body shaking.

"We care Alice, you know we do. And your mum does and so many people do that you don't realise. Just because five stupid girls put you down it doesn't mean that no one cares" Jake said kneeling down beside me.

"My mum is in a fucking coma and she's probably not going to wake up. And you are all sick of me, I heard Reece last night" I said, still crying relentlessly. Reece sat beside me and put his arm around me, squeezing my shoulder.

"Just because I said I hate to see you like this it doesn't mean I don't care. And the other boys didn't even come into that. I love you to pieces, we all do and you know that and you mean too much to all of us for us to let you kill yourself. We aren't going to stand by and watch this all happen, we're going to help you every step of the way and we've promised that from the start." He said, a few tears now running down his face too. I sat in silence, hugging my knees, because I didn't know what to say. The other boys were all sat or knelt around me with concerned looks on their faces.

"Look Alice, I don't think any of us realised how bad the bullying was and how bad everything was affecting you. Now we've seen it for ourselves and know it's that bad and we're going to be here for you even more. We aren't letting you go that easy." Barclay said, taking hold of one of my hands and smiling. I still didn't say anything, there was nothing to say.

"Barcs is right you know, you're gonna be okay" Reece said. I shook my head and stood up.

"Sorry, just give me a minute" I muttered, walking into the train station and into the toilets. I wanted to cut, I wanted to hurt myself badly. But my blade was in my bag on the platform. I locked myself into a cubicle, closed the lid of the toilet and sat down, rolling up my sleeve. The cuts from last night were still raw. I dragged my nails up my arm repeatedly, causing some of the cuts to split open again. I put my head in my knees and began crying again. I don't know what was wrong with me but I couldn't stop crying.

"Train now approaching platform one" the overheard tannoy said. That would be my train. I unlocked the cubicle door, wiped my eyes and checked my make up in the mirror. I looked a right state. I walked back out onto the platform and all the lads were waiting with the bags and suitcases. I took my suitcase from Reece and he took tight hold of my hand.

"Don't even think about it okay" he whispered as I stared down at the train tracks. The boys all grouped around me, I suppose to stop me trying to jump again. The train pulled into the station and we walked to the end of the platform, getting on at the end where there were always free seats because no one knew they were there. Reece still had tight hold of my hand and didn't seem to be letting go. The seats were all facing each other and I took the one at the end, turning away from the boys and resting my head against a window. Everyone sat in silence for a while, not really knowing what to say. I didn't mind the silence.

"Alice" Reece said quietly. I turned around and looked at him. He looked really worried and upset. "When was the last time you cut?" He asked. I glanced at Charlie across from me and he shook his head, telling me that I shouldn't tell Reece about this morning.

"I don't know, a while ago" I replied, turning my back on him again.

"Are you sure?" He said uncertainly. I nodded, more tears seeping from the corners of my eyes. Reece turned me around and took hold of my wrist, attempting to pull up my sleeve. I put my hand on top, stopping him from doing it.

"Alice let me see" he said. I shook my head. "Alice" he repeated sternly, taking my hand off his and pushing up my sleeve, revealing my arm.

"I'm so sorry" I murmured. It was all I could say. I pulled the sleeve down and wiped my eyes. Reece pulled me close to him and kissed the top of my head.

"You don't have to be sorry, you're going to be fine, I promise" he whispered, lifting my chin up and kissing me in the lips.