Introduced (Reece Bibby fanfiction)

Chapter 9

Not much really happened in the next few months, just the same old boring, shitty life. School was still crap, although the bullying had died off a bit as we got closer to exams. I had finished in May and was starting the sixth form there in September.

Me and Reece were going strong. We tried to meet up at least once a month, which was quite hard because often I wasn't allowed out of the house, don't even ask me why, I don't know myself. Over the past few months I had realised that I loved him. I really loved him. Not in like some soppy, teenager way, but even before he knew I existed I loved him. He had legitimately helped me through so much shit that I could never say thank you enough for and having him love me back now means the absolute world to me. He is my whole world and I love him. I also loved saying that. I could scream it to the world I love him that much.

Things with my dad hadn't improved much either. Mostly he just ignored me, with a few arguments in between and him not letting me out of the house. I've given up with him and he's given up with me.

My problems with self harm hadn't got any worse but they hadn't got any better either. I wasn't cutting as regularly but I've sunk deeper into depression, which isn't helping anything. I didn't like to talk to Reece about it too much in case it began to affect our relationship so I didn't tell him that I was depressed, even though I think he could tell, or about any of the horrible thoughts I was having. I just kept everything bottled up to myself.

Today was 2nd September, the day I started sixth form and the day that the boys were moving into their house 10 minutes away from me. I was excited to have them that close. I was going round after sixth form to help them unpack and stuff.

I arrived at school, a bit nervous for the first day. I didn't know who had stayed on to this sixth form and who'd gone to another college, I just know only about a quarter of the year stayed on here. I walked into registration and suddenly felt sick. It was a new form and there were only 8 of us. Me, two girls I had never spoke to before and 5 of the bullies from last year. Oh no, no no no no no. My legs started to tremble as I walked to the back of the room. Why them? I can't cope with them for yet another two years. I could feel a panic attack coming on and started shaking. I didn't listen to anything my new form tutor said.

As soon as the bell went I ran to the toilets. I locked myself in a cubicle and slid down to the floor. I put my head in my hands and pushed my palms into my closed eyes, trying to stop myself crying.

"Stop it Alice, just stop it. You're being stupid, just ignore them" I said to myself. I tried to calm myself down before coming out of the cubicle. I looked in the mirror, god I was a mess. I couldn't be bothered putting any more make up on so I just grabbed my bag and wandered to my first lesson.

I was only in for a half day so after lunch at McDonalds I began to walk to the boys new house. It was only a 5 minute walk away and when I got there they had just finished unloading all of the boxes. Reece saw me walking up the drive and came over to me.

"Hey baby, you okay? You look a bit sad" he said, putting his arms around me.

"When am I not sad" I sighed. Reece pulled me closer and stroked my hair as I leant my head on his chest. We sat down on the grass and he asked me what had happened. I told him about what happened that morning and he hugged me, kissing the top of my head.

"It'll be okay Alice. you never know, they might have changed over the summer and become the greatest people in the world, except for me of course" I laughed. I hadn't thought of that. They hadn't spoken to me that morning and I suppose it's possible that they've changed.

"ALICE" I heard a few of the boys shout, coming over to where me and Reece were sat. I hadn't seen the rest of the boys since the tour and had missed them a bit.

"WE'VE MISSED YOU" they shouted, all trying to give me a hug at the same time, ending up in a big crush of different peoples limbs everywhere. I found my way out of the pile of boys, trying to sort my hair out and laughing at the same time. Each of the boys then gave me a hug and we walked into the house. I walked with Jake and Reece.

"How're you doing?" Jake asked me. I'm guessing he told Reece about the conversation we had. I shrugged.

"Okay I guess" I replied. Jake put his arm around me and rubbed my shoulder.

"Well that's better than nothing but I want you to be amazing, and so does Reece." He squeezed my shoulder and gave me another hug, then running off to help James take the last box into the house. I took hold of Reece's hand as we walked through the door.

The house was huge. It had a large hallway and a large staircase in the middle. To the right was a kitchen and living room and to the left was a dining room (which probably wouldn't be used), a toilet and a garage. Upstairs were 8 bedrooms for each of the boys and only one bathroom, which wasn't really the best.

We took the stuff up to everyones rooms and began to sort through it separately. By the time we had finished it was 4 o'clock and time for me to go home. I said bye to the lads and said I would try and see them tomorrow.