Introduced (Reece Bibby fanfiction)

Chapter 42

I couldn't sleep. I was lay awake for hours but just couldn't sleep. I kept thinking about my mum.

I sat up and checked my phone, seeing that it was nearing 6am. Charlie was snoring lightly and James seemed to sleeping as I could hear him breathing heavily. I laid back down and curled up on the edge of the airbed. Thoughts and memories of my mum crept into my mind again, memories that I'd relived at least 20 times in the past few hours.

I squeezed my eye tight shut, trying to think about something else. More thoughts ran round my head, telling the boys about the rape mainly. I was still scared that they'd all think bad of me, especially Reece.

The feeling that I was becoming a burden on them came into my head. There always seemed to be something bad to do with me going on and I felt like the boys were getting sick of it. I let out a sigh and a small sob, wiping away a tear that was rolling onto the pillow.

"Alice" I heard being whispered from behind me, it was James' voice. I heard movement and felt his hand being placed on my hip.

"I thought you were asleep" I sniffed, turning over to face him. We were quite close together now and he put one arm around me.

"No I haven't slept, I heard you getting upset a few times but didn't want to disturb you. Are you okay?" He asked quietly. I shook my head and then remembered that he couldn't see me.

"No, no I'm really not" I whispered back, a few more tears landing on the pillow.

"Come on, spill. Tell me what you're thinking about" he said, now pulling me into a hug.

"I can't. I just can't do it anymore. I'm a burden on everyone and everyone's getting sick of it. I don't want to be a burden anymore" I muttered, biting my lip to stop a sob escaping again. James' arms tightened around me and he pulled me into him so our noses were near enough touching.

"You are not a burden. Not under any circumstances will you ever be a burden to any of us. We tell you a million times but we love you and we care about you and want you to get better so if we didn't we'd have told you to fuck off a long time ago. Do you think we would have agreed to you staying with us if we didn't care? That if we didn't care we wouldn't be doing anything to help you and cheer you up? Because trust me, we want you to be happy, we want you to feel okay, we don't want you to feel like a burden on us." James whispered, tucking my hair behind my ear and placing his hand on my cheek.

"We love you. I love you" he said, leaning towards me.

"I-I love you too James but-" I tried to say, getting cut off by James' lips on mine. He wrapped his arms around me so I couldn't pull back but I didn't want to. I felt a compelling urge to kiss back, the knowledge that this was wrong moving to the back of my mind.

James kissed me harder and the kiss became more heated. I wasn't thinking straight. It was taking my mind off everything even though I knew I would feel bad later on. I closed my eyes and kissed back, rolling on top of him. All I thought about was the kiss and nothing else, it felt good. The kiss got more passionate as he snaked his arms around my waist and I ran my fingers through his hair.

I heard a loud snore from next to us, suddenly remembering that Charlie was sleeping right there. I pulled out of the kiss and rolled off James, still lying right beside him.

"Shit, I forgot he was here" I said, sounding amused.

"So did I, but are you not going to tell me that I shouldn't have just done that or something?" James replied, turning his head towards me.

"No, I actually kind of enjoyed it. I know that sounds bad and that it was wrong but it felt nice. You're a good kisser" I said smirking.

"Thanks, we should probably try and get a few hours of sleep now at least and we might wake this one up if we carry on talking" he said, pointing to Charlie. "If you get upset again or need to talk or whatever just wake me up okay."

"Okay, thanks. Goodnight, well actually it's more like good morning now" I replied, turning over so my back was to James but still close to him, his arm draped over my waist.

A/N

So yeah I decided to bring back the James storyline for a bit to make things a bit more interesting. I think I have a few things planned now for the plot so hopefully the chapters might get a bit longer and the story might get a bit better.

Also sorry for not updating this weekend when I said I would try to. A few important things cropped up and I didn't have a great weekend so updating slipped to the back of my mind. I'm trying to update more regularly but it's not going very well so I apologise.

I just want to say one more thing, which is THANK YOU FOR 20K READS!!! I got 20k today which is just unbelievable thank you so so much for just reading the story. I really thought this would flop and I just wrote it to let my feelings out so I never expected people to like it and vote for it and read it regularly, thank you, it really does mean a lot. I love all of you that bother to read this story so much, it makes me so happy that people like it.

My A/N's always end up so long omg sorry, I'm bad at this stuff.

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