The Fifth Member (Little Mix/Perrie Edwards gxg) Part 2

Chapter 9

Perrie's POV:

It's been a month since we started touring again. We are now for our first concert in Australia, Perth.

Beth has been deep in thought lately after every session with her therapist. But afterwards she would also always seem to be doing better. I'm so thankful for that woman.

I'm still holding out and waiting for her. I won't move on. She is my soulmate without a doubt. I'm not gonna throw that away for someone else that's probably not even worth it.

Slowly I can tell she started accepting that the fire wasn't her fault. But that's one of the many things she needs to work on.

After that she still has to learn to love herself and to eat. It got worse again and she lost loads of weight.

Especially with our choreo which makes her exercise. It's really dangerous.

I think I've finally figured out who Ellie likes.

And I don't like it.

It's Beth. How could I be so oblivious? When Kat said, 'She's hard to deal with.' It should have served as enough of a clue.

Especially because Ellie didn't want to tell us who it was.

Since then I was really jealous whenever she approached Beth or even did her makeup. Before I never noticed, but she takes extra good care with Beth and takes her sweet time. Plus she enjoys being able to touch her face without seeming weird.

Ellie is not a bad person, but Beth is mine.

If I knew that Beth liked her back then I'd be fine, but she doesn't. She dodges her and kinda avoids letting Ellie get close.

I sighed. Can't Beth finally be better?

I feel awful for thinking like that, but I just miss her so fucking much. I can't wait to be with her again. I miss holding her, I miss kissing her, I miss hugging her, I miss our alone time, our cooking lessons, our laughter.

I miss everything. Even the unnecessary fights.

A tear fell but I wiped it away. Crying won't get me nowhere right now.

I fell asleep in my hotel room. Tomorrow we'll have to wake up early for the concert.

I drifted off with the thoughts of Beth in my mind.

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I waved and smiled at our fans after we finished the concert. We went off and did our things. The usually really.

Beth is somewhere but I don't exactly know where. Ellie isn't here either.

I will not stand up to look for them. I trust Beth.

I'm so stupid. Beth isn't with me anymore. She has the right to be with anyone else. Just like she gave me the freedom to be with someone else, which I don't want, I should give her the same freedom.

I really couldn't help myself and went to look for them.

I walked through the halls and heard someone finally.

"Deep breathes. It's alright." I heard Ellie say.

Is Beth having a panic attack?

"That's good. Should I go get the girls?" Ellie asked.

Yeah it's Beth.

"No... and thank you Ellie." I heard Beth say.

"Anytime. If you ever need anything don't hesitate." Ellie said.