The Fifth Member (Little Mix/Perrie Edwards gxg) Part 2

Chapter 21

Perrie's POV:

Finally we went back to the UK. Being in the states was very awesome and definitely a high in our career, but it's still all very weird and new to me.

I know Beth hasn't been able to enjoy it all that much. I myself was very cautious and I still don't really understand myself why Columbia suddenly allowed us to have interviews here. 

Like her I have been thinking about it, and honestly I'm a little worried.

All these interviews being specifically aimed at me and her, it has to make the girls feel left out. And it fucking sucks.

At first I wasn't really thinking about it and was just excited that we broke through America, but when we actually were there I understood why Beth was so worried.

But we are back now, only with like at least 10 million more followers and an expectation to go back to the states.

Honestly this could've been a one time thing as well. Just because now we've been in a few interviews and guest appearances, it didn't mean we would actually do a tour there or something. Columbia still didn't give us tour dates or something like that.

But I sure hope so. Apart from the Glory Days Tour, the LM5 Tour must be my favourite. It would be awesome to perform in America with the set list and the outfits, the choreo. It'd be epic.

Currently I was laying next to a sleeping Beth, who was curled up to me in the most sweetest way. I smiled and kissed her forehead lightly.

I don't really believe in conspiracy theories all that much, but I really can't make any sense of what's been happening lately. Things started looking up out of nowhere almost immediately after Beth and I came out as a couple.

The support has been comforting, but it's not usually something that would suddenly catapult us to a whole new level of famousness.

I keep try and make myself stop worrying, good things can happen without it being a plan of the industry to screw with us, but life isn't that easy.

The girls haven't been talking too much about the subject at all. It's like they don't really care as much about why it happened. Beth and I shouldn't either, we are worrying for no reason.

Everything will be fine. Little Mix is forever.

At least that's what I thought.

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Beth's POV:

I woke up to my alarm ringing and I let out a loud breath turning it off.

I stood up and made my bed. I went to the kitchen and made myself a coffee.

Sitting down at the kitchen table I took the newspaper and read it.

'Leigh-Anne Pinnock launches a successful solo career creating competition against the rest of former girl group Little Mix'

Reading that was enough for me to throw it in the trash.

I took my phone and as expected, I was tagged in many posts talking about my former bandmates.

Sighing I turned it off and went to shower.

Many things changed, which I was worrying about back then, and as always, I wasn't overthinking at all.

After I finished showering I bit my lip. It would be a lie if I'd say that I'm not the least bit interested to see what kind of music Leigh-Anne released.

Caving I opened Spotify not having the courage to watch the music video and seeing my former best friend again.

Along the songs from Little Mix on her page there was her new single. I pressed on it and connected my Airpods.

I closed my eyes listening. Her voice was still as soothing and soft as I remembered, and the song was very awesome. Probably will chart high.

After it finished I was crying. I'm missing them. I used to think they needed me as much as I needed them, but I always make the same mistakes.

Not anymore.

I turned on the Telly and a video caught my eye. It was about me. Quite long and it had many views.

'Where did Beth Fields go after the disbanding of Little Mix?'

Well... I moved to the US to avoid all my life troubles as usual and now I'm all alone while my former best friends all seemingly got over our disbanding rather quickly.

Oh and my ex, who's probably preparing her solo debut as well.

I turned the TV off and sighed. So there probably won't be anything for me to do today.

It's not like they were still friends, no we all alienated each other after a while, but that doesn't mean it hurts any less.

They were meant to stay, they were meant to always be there. She was meant to always be there. Always.

Not even they did.

Sam and Noah are still in the UK since they have a life there. Sam married Steve and Noah has a girlfriend of three years now who he'll probably propose to soon as well.

I did go to Sam's wedding. After all she is still my best friend. And I met Noah's girlfriend, Josie as well, but after all of that I finally left.

They still call and check up on me, but I most of the time end the calls rather quickly.

Again, not being able to stop myself I looked through their Instagram accounts.

They all were very up to date. They all looked happy, content even. Am I really the only one that needed them?

I was stuck on Perrie's picture. I couldn't stop looking at it. Tears welled in my eyes, I lost her once again.

Teardrops soon were falling on my phone.

I guess I could give them the benefit of the doubt, and say they could fake it for the public, but then again they don't usually do that, and neither am I doing that which is basically why everyone thinks I've vanished.

I almost never leave the house nowadays, and if I do, it's while I'm very covered so no one can recognise me.

I don't even think anyone knows that I moved to the states except for Sam and Noah.

The girls also broke contact from them which was to be expected.

Things will never stay the same, life isn't that easy. I know that, I got used to that, but I really didn't believe that they would ever leave.

They just weren't supposed to. They were along with Sam and Noah the only constant thing in my life that I could rely on. The only comfort and home I had.

And after years they still own my heart.

It's been 3 years since we last talked as well. I was 25 then now I'm freaking 28 and it's soon 2023.

Jade's birthday is soon. But it's not like we congratulate each other anymore.

I know that she is a guest judge on drag race, but I couldn't bring myself to watch it.

Jesy is now a dancing sensation along her singing.

They are all doing things, all of them continuing their singing career and doing other great stuff alongside it.

But I stick to what I always said. I wouldn't pursue this career without them.

I guess they would after all.

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A/N: I'm so sorry for not updating so long but I really didn't know how to continue but I finally got an idea.

Again I'm really sorry.