The Fifth Member (Little Mix/Perrie Edwards gxg) Part 2

Chapter 25

Jade's POV:

I woke up on Saturday and sighed. I need to go back to England today.

After getting the award there was quite the celebration. Let's just say loads of alcohol was involved.

Whilst brushing my teeth I kept thinking about Perrie and Leigh, which automatically made me think about Beth and Jesy.

After everything I still didn't want them to be mad at me. They deserved the award just as much as I did.

Hearing Perrie's song yesterday with all of her emotions and knowing exactly what parts are directed at Beth was hard. Some of them were also directed at us just a little.

Leigh-Anne yesterday merely nodded at me from across the carpet and then immediately turned around.

Her, Jesy and I didn't have as much of a reason to not talk to each other like we did with Perrie and Beth, but we did fight a little between the three of us as well.

All of it was so unnecessary. All the fights... and I hate to admit it but it is mostly our fault.

We got jealous of all the things they got. After we returned to England they started going to interviews on their own because we simply weren't invited. It's like they were separated from us slowly anyways.

I dont know why we were like we were back then. What the hell got into us?

Back then I used to notice how Beth deflated as soon as the interview put attention on their relationship, she didn't want us to be excluded. She truly didn't want it and felt bad about it, and yet we still did what we did back then.

Perrie on the other hand, unlike Beth, really got mad at us for it. I can't really blame her, but some of the things she said were out of line, but I guess what we said was out of line as well.

This is all stupid. How could we destroy such a magical friendship over fame? Jealousy?

Well... I guess it's all over and done with now anyways. Something really big would have to happen for all of us to start talking again. Like... really big.

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Jesy's POV:

"Fuck off James." I said while laughing.

"What? You know you're a terrible cook." He said while making us sandwiches.

"Yeah but I still know how to make sandwiches!" I said offended.

He simply hummed sarcastically. I was hanging around with my best friend and we were watching the AMA's on TV. The volume was low and a commercial was on right now.

James finished our food and sat down next to me just in time since it started again.

The next performance was from someone I really didn't know would perform. My entire appetite got lost.

James simply looked at me and I crossed my arms and watched it while leaning back.

"And I know that I'm at fault, it tore me apart every time we fought."

Tears stung my eyes but I quickly fought them back.

How can she sing this so easily? I'd be crying already knowing exactly who and why each of these lyrics are for.

Soon enough the performance ended and I was able to keep tears from falling.

James turned to look at me thoughtfully. He simply hugged me and I sighed. Why do I have to miss them?

"You know, you can still try to reach out to them." He suggested in a comforting manner.

I stayed quiet. There's really no way I could reach out without losing any kind of dignity I have left.

We continued to watch and soon enough an award was being introduced, for which all three of them were nominated.

Jade won while Leigh and Perrie seemed quite neutral to it. No actually, Perrie was fighting a smile and in Leigh's eyes I could see she was proud.

The cameras knew exactly who to film close up huh?

I myself couldn't fight off the little smile on my face. She deserved it.

Initially I had been thinking Perrie would win because she even performed, but I guess I was wrong.

Finally the show ended and I was pretty tired.

One day I'll have an excuse to talk to them.

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Leigh's POV:

"Next time babe." Andre said while we were clapping for Jade.

Silently clapping I didn't care all too much. At least one of them won.

Once Jade was up there I couldn't help my heart. It warmed at how Jade was looking at me. Worriedly that I'd be upset.

I allowed a very faint smile to let her know everything is fine. Just because I don't talk to her doesn't mean I need to cause her unnecessary anxiety.

A minute later she stepped off the stage once again having delivered and awesome speech.

"Babe I see the longing and regret in your eyes." Andre said sighing.

"Not here where literally any possible celebrity or journalist could be." I singsonged.

He looked at me seriously.

"Andre drop it already." I said a little annoyed.

I wonder if the girls family or something bothered them with it as much as mine did.

"I will once you are truly happy again. I see you stalking their Instagram and watching your old videos. You clearly miss them." He said.

"I don't deserve to miss them." I simply said remembering everything back then.

"Why not? Because you said some shitty things? Yeah well people can forgive, and these girls would forgive you for anything. Especially these girls. You all loved each other way too much for it to end this way." He said putting his arm around my shoulder.

We were speaking quite lowly, almost whispering, so I'm not worried about anyone hearing.

"And when Perrie performed I saw your hurt look. It pained you to hear her sadness." He pushed further.

"Andre just for tonight please stop." I said sadly.

He sighed but did drop it and then we finally decided to leave.

I do miss them terribly, and I feel incredibly responsible for Perrie and Beth's break up.

If we hadn't let our jealousy get the better of us they wouldn't have fought. And they only fought because Beth didn't want us to be mad. She understood us and tried to stop Perrie arguing.

I miss Beth even more than all of them. I see the others sometimes by accident. But her? Not since we disbanded.

Looking out at the sky while Andre was driving I couldn't help but let one stray tear fall.

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A/N: Hope you guys like it!