i am a writer
( and to some that may not sound important, but
what would they do when they are sad? )wondering who really, truly loves me
like the best friends i read about in books
compare my friendships to theirs( am i important to someone?
am i good enough for them? )and wondering where motivation comes from
i see wooden desks and red moons
and the slam of doors in the distance
none of them are inspiration
enough( old memories i'd die to recall
i can't remember them
not anymore )
and there's chapters i need to write, stories i need to tell
( who's story is already finished?
is it mine?
whose story is left to tell? )i am a writer,
and i do not have enough-
i pretend i do
( have enough, that is.
i know i don't)there are feelings i write about
that i've never felt
not really( i did once, i was a child
swinging on a tire withsunbeams in my air )
touch foreign lands,
reach the moon,
reach for their hand( i wrote those once.
i'm scared that they're all lies. )worry, worry, worry
make believe. imagine.
write the tears away, i won't cry -( - i don't know if i can. )
i am a writer,
and in my tales i weave lies-
i understand
one day i will tell truths
but that day isn't today( maybe in a million years )
but i'll still
speak them
telling half-truths are easy( my voice shakes )
they come true in my dreams
and i try to copy them down onto paper( it doesn't work. )
i am a writer,
and nothing i write is good( true )
enough.
[ 9.2.21 ]
wrote this one for class lol
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