Judgement - Johndo

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„Lee Doyoung, please answer the question.", the voice of a female teacher demands.

The said one gets his head up from his arms, which he was resting on, face down and half asleep. Even though he had been sleeping, he still answers correctly, the reason he lies back down and his teacher doesn't say anything against it.

A few more weeks till his final exams will start, after those he's done with school, can start either going to a university or search for a work place.

Neither of both sounds like something ambitious to him, yet he doesn't say that to anyone, just tells them he's not sure on what to do. It's only half a lie after all.

Having drank quite a lot the day before he feels sleepy from being up all night, that and also a throbbing headache, but after having taken one painkiller he just endures what's left of the pain he's feeling.

In fact, he has been drinking for a few days straight now, spending a lot of the money he got from previous dating partners or in other words, his victims. At home he was only a few times, that was in the morning once to change clothes for school and wash up, then he goes to school, stays there till it's time to pick up Sicheng, before doing so dresses up once more, ready to go out. Then he brings Sicheng home and drives either back to the same bar or a new one. He usually is there till about 3 or 4 am, sleeps a bit in the car then till it's time to get ready for school again.

His routine has been like this for about 4 days straight now, today he planned it being the last time, after this he should be good again. He met a few guys while out so there should be something to do for him in the next days again.

As for his finals, he's not that worried. He knows most of the stuff already and will only have to learn a bit, something he will do again after this last day of drinking, then that will be his new night activity.

Something nobody really has noticed about Doyoung over the years is that he can't sleep deeply for a long time, also hates having to wait to fall asleep, the reason he exhausts himself to the point of falling asleep right away. Like this his mind will be filled less with things he doesn't want to talk about or remember.

That day Johnny really did hit a hurtful spot, yet Doyoung noticed afterwards that his reaction to it was rather weak. Meaning, he noticed he could have acted differently, in a way it wouldn't have been noticeable. It's one of the main reasons he's drinking now, he's mad at himself so a headache it will be, as punishment.

He has avoided to be seen by Johnny, mostly though because he can guess Sicheng is trying to make him feel bad about what he had said. So, Doyoung decided to wait till he really feels bad and is forced to apologize, to then destroy him.

After all, he already know that the apology will under no circumstances be real, it'll just be saying it because he's forced to. Something Doyoung hates even more.