Judgement - Johndo

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„This is starting to really piss me off...", Doyoung mumbles to himself, walking around in his room restless even though it's the middle of the night.

Usually when he has sleeping problems he just makes himself be tired to the point where he falls asleep or simply stays awake over a few days to achieve this.

But it's already been two days since he slept and he still can't fall asleep without thoughts bothering him.

And it's not about something one would expect, like guilt or shame. Or fear of his dates coming back at him. Such fears already have existed somewhere inside of him for a long time, they count as usual problems.

He rather has something else on his mind.

And that would be one of WinWin's friends.

And also the worst one of them, Johnny.

Doyoung can't get the image of his body built out of his head, even if it just was through clothes, it still left a good impression on him. And since he's been unsatisfied for the last few days with his partners he's starting to go desperate it seems.

And he hates himself for it.

With anything else he could brush it off.

But not when it's about those desires.

It has been quite a long time since he got a taste of pleasure, one which was the best one till then, and he has been longing for it ever since. But never found it again.

The reason he says all his partners suck at sex.

In a way it's true after all, they haven't been able to satisfy him really.

The thing about Johnny is, he's just Doyoung's type if you only look at the body build.

The reason Doyoung would love to have a taste and try it with him.

On the other hand, it might not be that noticeable, but not only does Johnny hate Doyoung.

So does Doyoung hate Johnny.

If looking at the personality, Doyoung would really like it for Johnny to never come near him again.

Both his brain and desire tell him two things, causing a conflict which bothers him to the point of not being able to sleep.

And what's making this even worse is one simple fact he noticed.

He has seen that Johnny can be soft, in a way Doyoung would totally fall for him. Maybe even fall in love for real, even if Doyoung doesn't think that's possible.

The reason for that thought to even occur is when Doyoung went to pick up Sicheng. He saw Johnny patting the youngers head, with an honest and soft smile, like he wants to take care of and protect Sicheng.

„Shut up brain!", Doyoung rages, being really annoyed now.

He makes his decision short and simple, „Fuck this... I don't have a date or school tomorrow, I'll just drink myself to sleep. I hope Taeyong has some fucking whiskey and shit here or I'm going out to buy some, I don't care that it's 3 in the morning!"