Judgement - Johndo

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„Hey there Johnny!", Sicheng greets his friend happily, absolutely thrilled an excited about having been invited to come along with Doyoung and him, Taeyong joining as well.

After all, both brothers know Johnny had invited only Doyoung originally, who then wanted to take the two with him, since the opportunity is given. And somewhere it's also obvious on why Doyoung is scared to go there alone.

„What's up Win. Yo, Taeyong.", Johnny greets the two brothers back, even though Taeyong has stayed behind Doyoung. He's not that happy about Johnny focusing on Sicheng right away again, like always.

However, to his surprise Johnny then gets away from the younger brother, completely focusing on Doyoung now, his expression, unlike in the past, not changing that much, he still seems pleased to see the other.

„Hello there Doyoung. Thanks for taking the invitation."

Surprised, yet somewhere relieved and a bit happy, Doyoung answers, „Thanks for even inviting me I guess. I thought I'd better bring along those two."

„What for though? Were you scared I couldn't have a good time at the water park with you alone?"

Avoiding eye contact, since he kind of got caught, as he tries to talk his way out of it.

„No, not really? Just wanted them to have the chance to come here too, it's been a while since they have been at one and I've never gone with them together."

Johnny takes it jokingly as he giggles a bit, the insecure and shy side of Doyoung is something he can't exactly get used to just yet, makes him want to tease the other.

„If you say so. Then let's go together the next time, without a family reunion joining along."

„Now now, don't be mean to Doyoung. He just wanted to do something good.", Taeyong says to Johnny who seems to be honestly having fun.

While Sicheng is making sure Doyoung is okay, who's half freaking out in his mind and confused, because it seems like Johnny is half flirting with him right now.

„Would he really okay being here with just me or am I crazy?", Doyoung asks the younger quietly yet screaming inside.

„He's messing with you, don't worry that's a good sign. It's because you appear so shy right now, makes him end up teasing you. He did it with me too. Say Hyung, why are you so shy right now though?", Sicheng asks back, he's been wondering about that.

Doyoung has shown a lot of different emotions lately, yet not something like this, it seems very out of character.

„How can I not be? I am panicked! Remember back then, the first time I met Johnny and your friends in general? Where I basically asked him to fuck?"

„Oh yeah. Why though? What's the deal with that now?"

„Win I didn't say that for nothing. I didn't say it for no reason. I kind of meant that. He's fucking hot, you should know his body build too, you've seen him change clothes! That day I saw his body kind of too, since he had that fucking tight shirt. Curse him for owning those things... but like. You get what I mean?"

„Kind of but also not. What's the problem here?"

„Win, he's my type. Not just in like character, but looks sadly too. He's way too fucking attractive for me. My problem is that I want to start over with him. From the last time he invited me he made it... pretty clear that he doesn't want me to like... be too close to him, you know what I mean? Since I've always done... things... with men. And he knows it too, it wasn't hard to guess. But yeah like, I should really not flirt or just make any kind of move in that direction." Doyoung kind of whisper screams, sounding completely in despair.

Sicheng doesn't seem to catch up in what Doyoung is talking about, since he's more rambling than anything else.

„And, the problem?"

„Ugh! Okay, to make it short. I am attracted to Johnny in more than one way. Got it? And we are going to a water park now, where he will be without a shirt."

„And? I mean, you're getting some eye candy then.", Sicheng can't help but comment before he laughs.

„And that's exactly the problem. Win, I'm here to become friends with Johnny, not cross the line. Because remember, if I would say anything to him, even if meant as a compliment, he won't take it as that. And I most definitely could start drooling over him and his body. Realizing the problem now little brother?"

Sicheng Stopps laughing now, as the problem slowly but surely seems to arrive at his brain, what Doyoung is talking about.

„Oh... Right he doesn't see you that way and would be offended probably."

„Worst thing is that I've been on sex withdrawal basically for over four months or more now. I can't even tell anymore if I'm able to control myself or if I might show a physical reaction or anything! Win I have no idea what could happen and I really don't want to risk anything going wrong! That's why I'm in this gay panic!"

„Then why did you accept it though? You should have known all these things beforehand too?"

„... I didn't want to be rude... also I did want to go here, I do like such things... but I realized how bad my desire is only yesterday and now I'm scared..."

Doyoung doesn't even need to tell what exactly he meant, Sicheng already can guess very well what happened yesterday and what his brother is talking about. And since he's used to the topic from Doyoung it doesn't really faze him that much, then again, he had not heard from his brother anything in that direction.

From what he knows, Doyoung never got excited in that sense about someone he didn't even sleep with just yet. And even afterwards, he never really developed a desire for a specific person. But thirsting for Johnny without having had physical contact yet... that's something very out of the ordinary.

And exactly that also kind of tells Sicheng, even if it's in Doyoung's own way, how serious this thing with Johnny seems to be.