Adorably Silly (ENDED)

The rest of my life

Tin's POV

We had lunch and sat on the couch. We need to catch up on "communication".

—Can, —I said seriously, —we must talk.

He was scared but nodded. I started:

—As I have already told you, when I was little, I lived in Thailand with Tul and he was a good P. But my parents were never loving or close ... So I went to boarding school and then my brother stopped talking to me ...

Breath deeply. When I think about all this, it hurts.

—I felt like I was really lonely. I was stupid, you know ... I usually am.

Can drew a slight smile. His face and countenance were of attention.

—I don't know if I wanted to attract attention or what ... But I started running away from boarding school to go to parties and drink, I hung out with the wrong people and ...

I couldn't look him in the eye.

— I met Chao. —I admitted.

To my complete surprise, Can's hand reached up to mine and squeezed.

— Chao was friends with the older boys that I hung out with ... —I felt terrible telling him this— and one day ... One day he suggested we go to a party.

— I know. —My baby said suddenly and looked at me— He was the one who told you to go to the party to which Tul called the police ... He told me.

It took a lot of effort for him to say it. I got a little closer and he did too. I pressed my hand with his again.

—At that moment I felt terrible ... My parents hated me more than before and treated me worse, Tul became unbearable, I knew how toxic the media could be and they made me go home.

It wasn't my intention to sound sad, but that's how my voice came out. My baby came over and hugged me and I unconsciously hugged him.

—The day before going back to the boarding school, Tul went out with me to drink. Can you believe it? He got drunk and confessed everything: he had called the police, he had organized the party and he even knew Chao ...

My boyfriend hugged me tighter. Right now I feel very small.

—The worst moment was coming back. I felt that Tul was the only person that I loved and admired and had betrayed me. So I closed myself off from everyone and closed my heart, because it felt like shit and I felt stupid.

Can was watching me. He never let go of my hand, but we changed positions and he wrapped his arms around me and I leaned against his chest. I wanted to cry.

— I hated him for so long and now ...

—Shh, shh, —he said and stroked my hair—. That's the past, now you know you have a good P.

— For years I only closed myself, I became colder, more unbearable and I only harbored hatred towards my brother.

I felt Can's hand on my cheek, was I crying?

—Then I met a stupid kid who turned my world upside down. —I looked at him and smiled. I got up to look at him and I risked caressing him: he let me— And meeting him was the best thing that happened to me in my life. —We both smile.

I looked back at the ground and removed my hand from his face.

—That's why when I saw you with Chao, I ...

I breathed and it was hard. But Can grabbed me and pulled me close to his chest again.

—When I saw you with him I got upset and he ... He ... The way he looked at you ... —Now I am aware that my tears are falling— Do you remember I had a nightmare?

He started a little and nodded.

—I thought that if I told you what it was about, you would tell me that it was a lie, that I am jealous -... —He interrupted me.

He pulled away a bit and looked at me indignantly.

— You know that I believe you. Why didn't you tell me what it was about? —I was hurt— I regret not having pressured you more to tell me.

— No. I was wrong. —I took his hand— the nightmare involved you and Chao ... —I started to speak slowly and my voice weakened— it was like a premonition of what would happen ... That's why I came to Japan —I let go. I didn't felt worthy of him—. And I couldn't protect you.

It hurt my soul to confess that to him. I was really crying, the truth is that the tears didn't let me see, but I think he was crying too. I clung to his diver.

— I'm sorry, Can, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry ...

He didn't say anything, but he hugged me tight.

Can's POV

When Tin said we had to talk, I was scared. But he began to talk about himself: he told me about how he felt in his life, it was not lies or deceptions. He opened his heart and showed me his most vulnerable part again.

He was honest with me, he told me how he met the coach and what his nightmare was about. Now it all makes sense: the coach had already cheated on him in the past ... And he did it again. Tin trusted me, he gave me freedom and I was stupid and was fooled. But he feels guilty and it is not like that. And now we're both crying, I need to tell him:

— Love, —I wiped my tears— Don't feel guilty, I am grateful that you rescued me —I ran his hair and dried his tears— but the fact that you are here, now, by my side ... There are no words to express how much I love you. —He smiled and melted under my touch.

He took my hand that was on his face and lowered it to his mouth to kiss it.

— But I don't feel worthy of you, I failed you. —He said.

Worthy of me? With everything that happened, I'm not worth it.

— How can you say that? —I reproached him— You are the most kind, understanding and loving person I know. —I took his face in my hands— I don't know what I did to deserve you, but I'm very lucky.

— What do you say? —He took it as if it were a joke—Your P's adore you, everyone you know is dazzled by your light ... You are a unique little person, Can.

We dried our tears and we embraced, or rather: I hugged Tin.

— I can never have someone better than you, Tin. —I settled down to look at him— I don't care if you feel like you're not enough, because for me, you're the only one I could be with for the rest of my life, do you hear me?

— Hmmm, is that a marriage proposal?

I smiled and pulled away.

— Idiot.

I crossed my arms, pretending to be offended. He came closer, hugged me slowly and pressed me to his chest. He brought his face closer to my ear.

— Of course I accept, baby, —he whispered with a giggle—. I'm more than willing to spend the rest of my life with you.