Adorably Silly (ENDED)

I want to trust you

Can POV

I never saw Tin like that. I regretted immediately. We spent a few seconds in silence, he said nothing to me, not arrogant, nothing sarcastic, no comment ... Nothing. Just ... It seemed like he was going to cry and I felt that for nothing in the world I should make him cry.

— It's fine, it's fine! I'm sorry. –I excuse myself—. I was very cruel to you.

Tin put an expression that made me feel like shit. He bit his lower lip, as if he wanted to silence a cry. Why do I feel so bad? He is always cruel to everyone and obviously nothing happens to him. Why do I feel so bad to think that maybe because of me he can shed tears?

—You're right, —he said to my amazement. —Nobody wants to be with me.

What happened next was like a verbal incontinence, something uncontrollable that was inside Tin.

— I don't have friends. —He looked on the verge of tears. —My family ignores me. —I didn't say anything, but it was like a catharsis. —You know? My mother is just a second wife. She and my father got married for convenience, because my mother was from a better family than her first wife —did he feel... hurt? By telling this? —Even my nickname ... —I don't think he can stop his crying any longer. —It is similar to that of my half brother, my parents never paid much attention... he is the heir of the family. That's why I don't trust anyone. —Tin said. He took courage to say one last sentence of his speech: —But I want to trust you.

To say that I feel like shit is repetitive and fails to express how bad I really feel. I never thought he had this kind of life, I... Does he really want to trust me? But... But... I'm just Can and today I behaved like a jerk...

—I'm truly sorry, Tin. —I said sincerely. —I said many cruel things, sorry, it wasn't my intention to hurt you. I feel so bad for behaving like a stupid little boy. I... I never thought you had such family problems. Please forgive me for saying those things.

I never thought I would apologize to the car's idiot... But now that I know him more... He is not that stupid, nor so bad, he is a poor child who has a very complicated family. I was waiting for his response. He smiled and dried his tears. Thinking that I was guilty of them makes me feel even worse...

— And do you really believe what I just told you?

WHAT? Did he lie to me? He put on his arrogant moron face and spoke:

— It was just a lie and you believe it?... How stupid can you be?

He got me mad. I refuse to believe that he lied to me, not in my face, not like that, not blatantly ... Not about something so personal. He is not the type of person who would cry in front of others but he did cry in front of me and said he wanted to trust me... I got angry and took him by the shirt to face me and give me an answer.

— Did you really lie to me? —My voice didn't sound angry, just... sad, hurt and amazed.

— And you were stupid to believe me.

I hate him! Today was enough.

— Damn you! —I released. —You're such a bad person that it is not worth wasting time on you. I never want to see you again.

I walked away. He stayed where he was, without moving or saying anything. How can it be like this? How could I be so stupid? Why did I believe in his words if he is not my friend? You played with me Tin Medthanan...

Tin POV

Can managed to hurt me with his words. The truth is that I was not prepared for this, I don't usually care what people say. What happens with Can?

— It's fine, it's fine! I'm sorry. —He apologized—. I was very cruel to you. —He seem sincere when he apologized

— You're right, —I said. —Nobody wants to be with me.

I feel weak, I feel that I am about to have a moment of sincerity that goes beyond me... it is something that I cannot stop, it is something that only happens to me, when I'm with Cantaloupe...

— I don't have friends. —I stared at him—. My family ignores me.

I kept looking at him and noticed his expressions. During the day he made a lot of very cute faces of disagreement. But now he looked a little hurt and sad.

— You know? My mother is just a second wife. She and my father were married for convenience, because my mother was from a better family than her first wife. Even my nickname ... —I don't think I can hold the tears any longer—. It is similar to that of my half brother, my parent never paid much attention... he is the heir of the family. That's why I don't trust anyone.

The following words came out of my lips without my permission:

— But I want to trust you.

While I was waiting for what Can would answer, my whole world froze. Since when do I care so much about his opinion? Or rather, why do I care what Can thinks about me?

—I'm truly sorry, Tin. —He said sincerely— I said many cruel things, sorry, it wasn't my intention to hurt you. —He didn't know how to continue—. I ... I never thought you had such family problems. Please forgive me for saying those things.

He believes in me! He believed in my words. And that makes me very happy and worries me a lot. This is wrong ... this is very dangerous Tin. You have already said many things, all this is very dangerous. Flee. Protect yourself.

— And do you really believe in what I just told you? —My tears had fallen. I don't know why, they were sincere, but Cantaloupe can never find out about that.

I need to do a good performance: Can must continue to believe that I am the moron from before. I have to take it away, it is becoming my weakness. It is making me careless and weak.

— It was just a lie and you believe it?... How stupid can you be? —He got angry and took me by the shirt, bringing our faces closer.

— Did you really lie to me? —His voice was disappointed.

Don't put that face on me Can, don't make it harder!

— And you were stupid to believe me.

—Damn you! —He Dropped me—. You're such a bad person that it is not worth wasting time on you. I never want to see you again.

He walked away. It was the best. Although now I feel something inside me writhing, even if my tears want to come out as I see how the silly boy walks away... I know it's for the best.