Adorably Silly (ENDED)

Like a zombie

Can's POV

I didn't tell P'No what exactly happened to my wrists, but he understood that whatever happened, I wanted it, so I wasn't going to complain.

The week was endless. Tin is with exams and I have not seen him. Not that I see him when we have lunch together, not even that, I have not been able to have lunch with him, not even see him for five minutes ... I miss him so much. I wish I could have said goodbye to him on Sunday. It's more than missing him, I need him.

For Tin:
You'll be an idiot and everything, but I miss you :(

From Tin:
I miss you like crazy too, baby

For Tin:
Want to see you

From Tin:
Me too, but now I can't. On the 24th at noon?

For Tin:
Yeah whatever ... I can't believe I feel like this, so ... Desperate to see you u // u

From Tin:
You are my everything, silly boy

That asshole! I hate him so much ... He also became my everything. I don't know when or how, but I can't conceive of my life without his messages, without knowing that I can see him and that when I do, I will be able to kiss him; because he is mine and I am his ... But there is something missing ...

Tin's POV

I'm going crazy. Not seeing Cantaloupe already drives me crazy but Tul ... I don't know what else he wants from me. He knows perfectly well that this week is for exams, well, he has been determined to make my life impossible. He calls me at five in the morning every day, just to wake me up; He has sent me to look for Nong Phu and I found him with my mom... they think I'm crazy. I cannot take anymore...

The other day I fell asleep in the library, I woke up because I felt something strange: a girl came up to me and took pictures with me, disgusting. Pete met me yesterday when he was going to my car.

— Tin? —He was amazed— You look terrible, what is it? Is everything okay with Can?

— Things with Can are better than ever —I confessed— I haven't been able to see him this week due to the study. —I regretted it.

— I hope he does not see you like this or he will worry a lot about you. —He complained sincerely—. Hold on! The recess begins on Monday. —He smiled.

Today wasn't better.

From Tul:
Little brother, I have a big surprise for you ... just wait and see

Is it a type of threat? What will you do now? Seriously, I'm mentally exhausted. I felt the cell phone.

From Can:
You'll be an idiot and everything, but I miss you :(

Only my stupid little boy, makes me forget everything and smile with just one message.

I'm dying to see him too, but I think in my full zombie state he would freak out and run away from me. Besides, I'm really dying, I'm exhausted.

For Can:
Me too, but now I can't. On the 24th at noon?

At night I have a family dinner and it cannot be postponed and I cannot escape, so since he is so looking forward to Christmas and that, I prefer to see him early.

I can't believe that we're finally in sync and feeling the same thing: I'm desperate to see him too, and I suffer while that doesn't happen.

For Can:
You are my everything, silly boy

I had been thinking about it for a long time, but now I decided: I can't go on like this.

"Hello?"
"Pete, I'm Tin. One question, is the apartment that was in your building still available?"
"Mmm ... I don't know, but I ask."
"Thank you."
"Wait Tin!"
"Tell me"
"Do you already know what to give to Can?"
"Not yet."
"Think about it."

Libra doesn't give me the life or the brain to think about anything ... but I only have three days left and I don't know what would make Can happy.

For Pete:
Could you help me find out what Can wants? Remember I got that info from that creep for you ... you owe me Pete, I need you to pay me now

I suck, I sound so desperate ... I really can't take it anymore. I don't want to continue in this hell and I don't want to go home. The last name is everything in my family so I know they want me to get my degree but living alone ... I will have to look for a job. I need to have my own place, without worrying about my family or anyone else and being able to be free. Free to be with Can as much as I want. It will be difficult, I do not know what they could think if my parents found out that I have a boy ... that I go out with a guy. Although now that I think about it, it is even weirder that my brother has not told them ... something very big must be up to Tul and the worst thing is that I have no idea what it will be.

Can's POV

Today is Friday and I feel as if something hurts inside of me. I can't explain it, but I know it has to do with Tin. Could it be that I miss him too much? I was walking aimlessly.

— Can, are you okay? —It was P'Type.

— I don't know P, I feel weird. —I confessed.

— What's going on? —He looked worried.

— I haven't seen Tin all week and I miss him. —He smiled.

— That's normal, Can.

— But I feel horrible, P ... I need to see him. I ... —I moved my hands but the words didn't come out, I don't know what to say frankly— I feel desperate and ... I don't know if he feels the same way.

— Why do you think that? —I blushed, I feel like I can open up with P'Type, but that doesn't take away my ashament.

—Well, it's just that ... —I felt the blush on my cheeks—. When we do our thing ... it never wakes up with me, he always leaves me and goes away and that makes me feel very bad.

—Hmmm, —He was thinking about what to say to me—. Did he tell you why he does that?

— Yes, something always happens and he has to go. —I looked at the floor sadly—. What if he doesn't want to wake up with me because that would be compromising?

— Did you tell him? —I look at him in surprise.

— Tell him that?

— Have you told him how he makes you feel when he doesn't wake up next to you?

— Of course not! —I replied immediately—. First, I have my pride and second ... I am afraid.

— About what?

— That he realizes that I am an ordinary boy and leaves me.

I don't know why, but it felt like my eyes were stinging. P'Type grabbed my shoulder tightly to make me look at him.

—First, —he explained quietly—, he had told you that he wanted to be your boyfriend, so I don't think he's afraid of commitment.

I just nodded, I think if I tried to speak my voice would sound cracked.

— Second. You are no ordinary and he knows it perfectly mwell! Can, please! That guy adores you! What's more ... I think he loves you.

I blushed, not expecting P'Type to tell me that. I know he doesn't like Tin very much but let P say that ... wow ...

—And third ... —He smiled guiltily—. Have you noticed your true feeling for him? Think about it Can, maybe you don't have to spend any money for Christmas. —He winked, released me, and left.

P'Type always leaves me wondering ...