Drowning Desires

thirty two

Maura

"If it isn't the little slut from New York City." Riley snickered, his gaze entirely on me.

Adrien tensed from beside me, looking ready to pounce on the asshole facing us.

"If it isn't the prick who tried to gang rape me." I slurred, I could already feel the pill affecting me. The room before me looked like it was spinning.

Riley glared at me, yet he didn't deny my accusation. Adrien stepped in front of me, clearly ready to go head on with Riley.

I didn't want him to. I didn't deserve his protection. Everything Riley was going to throw at me, I deserved.

My mum was right about everything, other than Adrien. Riley was going to be right about whatever he was going to say and I needed to face it.

My steps felt uneven as I pushed in front of Adrien and faced Riley, Landon and Jessii.

Both guys were only looking at me, a dangerous smile on their lips. Jessii looked to be eye-fucking Adrien. 

I kept my gaze on Riley. "Why were you so desperate to get into my pants?" I asked him, laughing at the absurdity of this confrontation.

"Don't flatter yourself Maura. You were a virgin, according to you. Doesn't everyone like a new car before chucking it to the rest." Riley snickered. Murmurs rose around us. 

Riley continued. "But of course, after a deep dive on the internet. I found you weren't so innocent as you let on." He took a step towards me. Adrien took a step towards him.

"That was a bit of a turn off. You weren't just used, you were rundown by the amount of guys you let fuck you." Riley said, teeth flashing. Everyone around us was quiet, waiting.

Adrien launched himself at Riley, the next second they were rolling on the ground, at each other's throats. I felt like it was just the pill making me see it. I couldn't tell what was real right now. It was relieving to be honest.

But I didn't need Adrien fighting my fights. I didn't deserve him.

"Adrien." I yelled. He didn't listen.

I stumbled over and grabbed hold of his shirt, trying to avoid the flying limbs. "Adrien, stop." I yelled again. 

Adrien pushed off a bloody Riley and spat on his face. His own covered in blood.

Riley stood up and sneered at us before stalking towards Landon. 

"Don't do that." I snarled at Adrien. He looked shocked at my reaction. 

"I'm not going to let Riley say those things about you Maura." He snarled right back.

That wasn't right. "I deserve to have those things said about me Adrien. You heard my mum." Everyone in the room was looking towards us, curious about the commotion.

"She said those things about the both of us. And she was wrong about it all." He said, softer than before.

I laughed, a hollow laugh. "She was right about me Adrien. About all of it. I'm just fucked up. You shouldn't be seen with me, maybe they will start talking about you as well."

Adrien looked into my eyes. Well, at least I thought he did, his face was beginning to twirl.

"Maura, you are not fucked up, you are healing." Adrien said, even softer. I could hardly hear him over the pounding music.

"I'm not healing Adrien. I'll never fucking heal. It was dumb for me to think that just because I was with you that I was a better person. Without you, I am just the slut from New York City. You deserve more than that." I snarled.