Over my dead body ~James Barnes~

Part 31

I'm parked in front of his house, standing still for almost 30 minutes as I'm staring at the fogged road in front of me with the fogged windows.

I have no reason to think like this, yet I'm so sure.
I step out of the car that I borrowed from James, but I'm definitely getting myself a car this week because I'm sick of traveling with the subway or borrowing his god damn car.

I unlock the door with the key and walk inside. I can hear James on the phone in his office and I toss my purse on the kitchen table as I grab my heels since they've been a pain in the ass all. fucking. day.

I walk over to his office and step inside, seeing him sitting in his chair and being on the phone. I can hear that he's frustrated about something, so I was about to walk away and just go home when he stands up from his seat.

"I'm gonna call you back." He says and he puts his phone down. He takes a seat in his chair again and leans back.

"Hey come here." He says as he's patting on his own lap. I stand in the middle of his office, just staring at him without moving.

"What?" He says as he notices how I'm just looking at him, thinking and staring like I haven't heard a word he said.

I take a seat in front of his desk and cross my legs, leaning forward with my elbow on my knee and frowning my eyebrows.

"You were at the hospital two weeks ago, looking for someone." I say to himself with a boost that shot out of me. He looks at me without moving a muscle, leaning back in his chair.

"Why were you there? Not for me, I wasn't working that day." I say really quick. God why do I think and talk like this. I don't have a reason to think like this.

"Candace, what are you doing." He says as he stands up and walks over to me on the other side of the desk, leaning against it in front of me.

"I don't know." I say as I look down at my hands, playing with my rings while he crosses his arms and his legs while standing in front of me.

"James what did you do." I say while my eyes are getting wet.

"Looks like you already know the answer." He says and I hit the desk next to him with my hand out of anger and frustration. "Then be a man and say it!" I yell and he immediately grabbed my hand so I would stand up.

"I killed him." He says and he looks me deep in my eyes, holding me close while holding my arm and I can hear a lump in his throat.

Right when he said that I lose myself from his grip, pushing him away from me and walk out. Just out of his office to the kitchen.

"Candace wait, let me explain." He says as he walks after me. Trying to grab my arm again.

"You promised James!" I yell as I knock his hand away. "You fucking promised me!"

"Candace It wasn't my plan, but the things he said about you-" he says but I interrupt him because I don't wanna hear it. Don't wanna hear any of it.

"God I should've known, he insulted me, you wanted to hurt him and a couple days later he got killed. I should've fucking known! I, I lied to the FBI." I say as I grab my purse and phone.

"Candace stop, please just stay and let me talk." He says while I walk to the bedroom, grabbing my shit.

"What? What are you gonna say? That you did it for me? That you did it out of love? Because that would make it okay. I don't fucking care why you did it!"

"Candace, he could've raped you! You think I'll let him go after that?!" He spits out behind me while I'm grabbing my coat.

"But he didn't! Because I took care of it myself!" I yell as I turn around to face him as he stands really close to me.