Over my dead body ~James Barnes~

Part 39

It's been 2 weeks. 2 weeks since the surgery on Casy. She hasn't made a movement whatsoever. Still in coma because of me. All because of me. I've been feeling sick every day, hating myself for what I did, can't even look at myself in the mirror without feeling disgusted.

Some people might think I'm overreacting, maybe I am... I don't know... but Casy felt like a daughter to me. Even though she has two parents who are pretty much alive. I still saw her as my kid for some reason. This surgery didn't only mess with her brain, but also with mine.

There is a reason why they don't let doctors operate on family members or friends. But I couldn't let anyone else proceed my plan on my Ca- fuck she's not my Casy but still.

James has been helping me every day by telling me that I did everything I could, that's it's not my fault. I just did my job with the permission that I got. Every doctor would do this.

He didn't say 'I told you so' even though he was right. James was right about the whole surgery, about how I shouldn't be doing it. And not because others would've done it better because they wouldn't. But because I love Casy, and I would hate myself. Surgeons who don't know Casy, wouldn't be this devastated as I am.

James said that the next one is gonna be great now I know what to expect, which makes Casy a lab rat after all...

I'm meeting up with Miles and Louis today for their wedding, gonna help them find a cake and suits. Not gonna lie, kinda forgot that they're going to marry with everything that's been going on, but I could really use a distraction. Okay I can't really call their wedding preparation a distraction, but it is.

I step into my car, and I drive to the bakery where I'm supposed to meet them. It's March already so it's freezing. I'm wearing some black tights, black turtleneck and a brown dress on top of it with some black shoes.

I see them both standing in front of the bakery, waiting for me as I step out of the car and walk towards them.

"How's Casy?" They both ask right as I stand in front of them.

"Same old same old." I say since she's still not awake. "But let's not talk about her, this is about you two!" I say as I give them a big smile while walking backwards in front of them.

"So... you have a cake in mind?" I say while walking inside the bakery. It's almost empty and there is one woman standing behind the counter.

"Not really, we don't even know what flavor we want." Miles says as we look at all the small cakes, standing in the showcase.

"Hmm, thought you wanted Lemon Cake." I say to Miles, and I look at Louis. "And you chocolate cake." I say to him.

"Yea well, that was then... I don't know what I want." Louis says and I give them a smirk.

"What?" He says but I already walked over to the woman behind the counter.

"What can I do for you?" She says with a sweet smile. She has this cute blue shirt with a cupcake on it and her blond hair in a ponytail.

"Hi, yes! I would like to have a little bit of every flavor you have please." I say and I turn around to give them a smile and I can see them standing there with their jaw on the goddamn floor.

"You do know that we know how chocolate taste, and lemon or strawberry..." Louis says since I ordered that too.

"So? You gotta taste everything. Don't argue with me about this." I say and Miles takes a seat at one of the tables as he crosses his legs.

"You heard Candy, we're tasting everything." Miles says and I give them a satisfied smile.

I walk over to the counter and grab the large white plate with 20 squares of every flavor this bakery has.