Over my dead body ~James Barnes~

Part 40

"Just walk away" by Céline Dion.

"Candace, I killed him, he's not alive." He says and I can see his eyes getting wet.

"Why, why... why would you say that. Why would you..." I say as I take a step back.

"Candace..." he says but I shake my head.

"You're not funny." I say to convince myself from what I just heard. He didn't, James didn't.

He doesn't say a word. He just looks at me how my eyes are filling with tears, and I frown my eyebrows.

"No, you didn't." I say with a little laugh but I'm actually already crying.

"Candace I am so sorry." Is the only thing that comes out of his mouth. I look at him for a long moment.

I don't say a thing, he doesn't say a thing. Just looking.

"You killed my husband?" I finally say and he nods. I nod back, just nodding back at him. "Okay." I say and I walk over to the kitchen.

I throw up right into the sink, the moment he said that, I felt nauseous, everything came out. I grab a towel and I wipe my mouth clean, and I start breathing heavily.

"Can't breathe, I, I can't breathe." I say and I bring my hand over my mouth and then through my hair.

"I wanted to tell-" he says as he steps closer, but I take a step back. Not because I'm afraid of him but he needs to stay there.

I walk over to the chair next to the fireplace and he stands in front of me. I look past him to I don't know what while I see blurry because of my tears.

I'm just sitting there. Cheeks and nose all red, eyes puffy and quiet. Just quiet.

"I was going to tell you." He says and I look up to him with a lump in my throat.

"When? After we got married? After we got kids? When were you planning on telling me." I say while shaking my head and looking down. Yelling has no point. I'm not even mad, I'm devastated, heartbroken and it feels like I just got a fever or something.

He doesn't know what to say, he just looks at me. He takes a seat on the couch while I sit next to the fireplace.

"How could you." I say as I shake my head. I wanna yell at him, I wanna scream, I wanna hit him, but I don't. I can't even yell or scream or anything.

He looks away to the side, exhaling deep and he swallows. "How could you even make me fall in love with you in the first place." I say and he turns his head to face me.

"I didn't know. When I met you, I didn't know that Dylan was your husband, Candace I would never ever hurt you." He says but I stand up from my seat.

"You think I believe you now? Why would I believe you. You lied about Jason, you lied about Dylan!" I say while my tears are starting to come back. So far, the not yelling.

"Candace, I'm telling you, I didn't know. I fell for you the moment I saw you in that bar, I didn't know anything about your history or Dylan's." He says as he stands up too.

I scoff and I shake my head, he takes a step closer, and I can hear a lump in his throat as well.

"Candace I am so sorry, I felt sick every day and every day I wanted to tell you, I just didn't know how." He says and he frowns his eyebrows to prevent crying. He never cries, like ever. But he's definitely struggling.

"You let me move in with you, you let me talk about our future." I say while shaking my head.

"What did he do?" I ask him, blinking slowly as I look up to him.