My Safe Haven

Chapter 24: One Step at a Time

Yelena's POV:

Wanda stayed silent as she patiently waited for the reason why I dragged her to my bedroom. I try to condition myself as best as I can before saying anything. I sat on the bed and buried my face on the palm of my hands. I felt Wanda sat beside me as she placed her hand on my back, making an effort to try and comfort me.

"I--, I don't know how to deal with that." I started.

"No one knows how to ever deal with something like that, Yels." she replied.

"I already feel broken before that. I don't know if that made it worse or if I just feel numb at this point." I explained.

"Whatever you need, I'm here. Heck, we're all here for you." she assured. "Is there something that you need from me?"

"Well, for starters, I want you to work on erasing that horrendous memory from my mind." I instructed.

"Okay. Uhm, I'll definitely work on that. But I need practice. Ever since my powers got stronger, I don't really know what exactly are my capabilities and if there are limitations. I don't want to cause anymore trouble. So, give me some time, okay?" she requested.

"Yeah but make it quick as possible because I already feel as if my body is not mine again and I just got my control back. And subconsciously, I'm getting the vibe of losing control again." I said.

"I understand. I promise to work on it. I just don't want to make it worse for you right now than it already is. Because when we were in your memories, I lost control over my powers too. That has never happened before." Wanda explained.

"Okay then."

"Anything else?" she asked.

"Yeah. I just have a question; would you do anything for Nat?"

"Not what I was expecting but let me answer that. Yes. I would do everything and anything for her. To the point that I would go to the ends of the world just for her." she answered.

"Why?"

"Because I love her so much and I don't know how but, that love keeps growing everyday." she explained.

"How did you found out that you're in love with her?" I probed.

"Uhm, can you tell me what this is about?" she questioned, making a confused look.

"Okay, uhm, I think like Maria. Well, I'm just slightly sure. And I wanna know what happens if ever we made any progress."

"Yels, my advice is for you to go with the flow. I know it sounds stupid and cliche but follow what your heart wants when it comes to these type of things. I know how scared you are in losing control but Maria knows what you have gone through, she will not do anything that would make you remember your past or other things that you don't want to experience. Partners adjust to whatever the other one needs, it's called compromise. I don't think planning everything or guessing what would happen in the future would be best because that could be very toxic. Love has no limits. I promise you. Start slow and work your way up. That's it. No pressure." she said.

"That actually makes a lot of sense. Uhm, thanks." I replied.

"No problem. If you need anything else, let me know."

"Sure. Uhm, well right now, I wanna be alone."

"You got it." she said, immediately getting up and making her way to the door.

I crawled on to the bed and buried myself under the sheets. My mind is going crazy right now and I don't know where to start. I wanted to do something about those assholes in my memory but after the fall of the Red Room, I am so sure that they're dead. Or Dreykov probably killed them before that if they have been that wreckless since he doesn't allow clumsly people working for him. He also doesn't allow resignations or retirements, you either work for him 'till you die or he kills you so his secrets won't be revealed.