Am I ready to fall in love again? I’ve been asking myself that same question over and over again since last night.
Gab is the type of guy who loves to play with women. That’s a fact, at alam ko yun. But why am I allowing myself to be involved with this type of guy? Hindi ko alam kung kailan o papaano, basta ang alam ko lang, naging kumportable na akong kasama siya. I was too comfortable with him, that I let my guards down. And now, I just allowed myself to believe that he is no longer the man that everyone perceived to be a devil in disguise.
Last night was one unforgettable night. I was a bit tipsy dahil na rin sa na-inom ko, pero I was aware sa lahat ng nangyari – at sa lahat ng mga sinabi ko. That night, I allowed myself to think of falling in love again.
He cupped my face and looked at me intently. “I want to kiss you.”
I froze on my spot. Sabi ko na nga ba eh, mamanyakin at mamanyakin din ako ng Gab na to.
“But I respect you.” he said and smiled.
Napatitig ako sa kanya. Woah! Tama ba yung narinig ko? Okay, Binabawi ko na yung naiisip ko about him.
“So I’ll just kiss you here.” He said as he kissed my forehead.
For a moment, hindi ako makahinga, hindi ako makagalaw.
“Sabi ko naman diba? Seryoso ako sa’yo Kim.” He said. “Even though I know na pwede kitang machansingan ngayon dahil makakalimutan mo rin naman to bukas, hindi ko gagawin. Because I respect you.”
“And I’m not gonna do anything that will hurt you.” He continued.
I looked at him intently. Eye to eye kami. I felt the cold wind brushing on my face, pero feeling ko ang init init ng mukha ko.
“Do you really love me?” I asked without breaking the gaze.
“I do.” He said.
I heave out a sigh before speaking. “Okay then, ligawan mo ako.”
He smiled genuinely, but then it slowly faded afterwards. “Nasborahan ka yata talaga sa ininom mo. Baka bawiin mo lang to bukas.”
Sumimangot ako at tumalikod. “Kung ayaw mo eh di wag! I-uwi mo na nga lang ako. Nakaka-imbyerna ka eh!”
I closed my eyes and hid under my sheets as I squirm in embarrassment. Buti na lang akala niya lasing ako, kung hindi, he might think na easy to get ako. That’s way too embarrassing.
Pero okay na naman sa aking magpaligaw eh. Ligaw lang naman. Pwede kong pahirapang ang buhay ni Gab, ganti na rin yun sa mga pina-iyak niyang babae. Yun, yun. At well, kung sakaling ma in love man ako sa kanya, eh di okay. Suicide na yun. Bahala na.
BINABASA MO ANG
The Last Shot
FanfictionWe all have choices to make, chances to take. But what if you made a mistake? And you only have one last chance at stake? Will you choose to quit? Or will you hold on to that last chance and take The Last Shot?
