History of You and Me

Chapter 9

We got up to more talking. I felt so comfortable around him.

"Speaking of Elizabeth"
He starts
"Remember that party she threw-"
"Where she made us make out"
Bucky nods

"It's crazy how we made everyone think we did"
Bucky says thinking of that day
"It was... but remember when Elizabeth went with Steve and he had his first kiss then"
"I remember how happy he was about it."

I smile. Such good times. I really wish sometimes we could go back.

"W-who was your first kiss..?"
He asks catching me off guard
"Um.. it was Ronny from school. I was 17.."

Bucky looks at me like go on.. so I go on to tell the brief story

"Ok.. I don't like the story so I'll spare the details. Ronny and guy his friends took me out to hangout with them. It was 5 of us walking around late at night and they had gotten some alcohol in me and we were playing questions and commands.. They asked me a question and asked me who I'd kissed before and I lied but they figured me out and command me to kiss him. I didn't want to since I wanted my first kiss to be special"
I tell bitting my bottom lip afterwards

Then I clear my throat
"What was yours?"

"Suzy... I was also 17"
He ashamedly says
I gasp

Suzy lived down the street from me. She was as innocent as could be. She still called her parents mommy and daddy at age 17, she had a curfew earlier then everyone else's, and she wouldn't even go in the same room as booze.

"You and Suzy"
I repeat and Bucky shrugs
"Tell!"
I command moving closer to him

"She and I had mutual friends- actually you were with some guy while this happened. Anyways, we were standing alone waiting for our other friends and she started to randomly talk about how she had never kissed someone before and she wanted to start to rebel against her strict rules. So before I could even say anything she kissed me. I just let it happen because I didn't want to upset her"

I scoff
"So we both had terrible first kisses"
"Yup"
Bucky says letting out a breathe

He then looks me in the eyes and says
"I wanted it to be you"
My heart skips a beat

What?
Did I just hear him correctly
"What?"
I ask with wide eyes
"I mean- I thought it would have been fun if we were each other's first kisses since we knew each other and it would've been a funny story"
"Right.. right"
I say trying to calm my beating heart

"Maybe we should have really made out at Elizabeth's party"
I joke and Bucky chuckles

There's silence for a second. Then Bucky breaks it
"Jeez did the temperature go up I'm burning"
He says getting up and tapping on his thermostat
I cant help but giggle at him
He takes off his jacket and hangs it on the coat rack by the door.

My eyes instantly go to his metal arm. I hadn't seen it before in person.
I can tell he feels my eyes on his because he awkwardly laughs

"Sorry I don't mean to stare, Buck"
I tell him and he shrugs
He puts his arm out and I go close to him and look at it
"Does it hurt?"
I ask him
"No"
He shakes his head
"Did it hurt"
He hesitates before answering
"I-I don't remember"

I look back down at the arm and carefully touch it.
"It still baffles me that, that happened to you."
He sighs nodding

I then notice he has gloves on
"Why?"
I ask and he says
"To hide the arm when I'm out. With jacket and gloves it's like it doesn't even exist"
"May I?"
I ask motioning to take off the glove and he nods so I go ahead and do it.
I frown
"Oh Bucky"

He had a small smile on his face when I look at him. But then I look him in the eyes and without breaking eye contact I pick up his left hand and kiss the top of it.
We just looked at each other after that.

He then after that made me some tea which made me very sleepy. I didn't intend to but I had fallen asleep.

That night I dreamt of the boys and Peggy. We were in a diner. Steve and Peggy across from Bucky and I. It was the 50s but we all looked how we do now. It was peaceful. We laughed and chatted. And Peggy broke the news that Steve proposed. They were asking Bucky and I for tips. But that's when I woke up I stared at the ceiling disoriented

I had a blanket on me, Bucky must've put that on me. I sat up and groaned. I took off the blanket, folded it and placed it to my side.It was dark out, I glanced at his clock and it was four am. I took out my phone and saw a lot of texts from Dahlia

Where are you?
Hello?
PLEASE don't tell me you hooked up with bucky.
DIANE
tell James he's not allowed to keep you
Hellooo
If you got hurt I'm not helping
Jk I'll always help
DIANE
Answer your phone oldie
I'm too tired for your shenanigans

I roll my eyes at her texts and text back

Coming home soon calm down.

I slip my shoes on, grab my bag and head for the door. From the kitchen Bucky clears his throat making me jump
"Bucky!"
I whine
"Leaving without a goodbye?"
"I thought you were asleep"
"Well you cant sneak out that easily"
I glare at him
"Shouldn't you wait until morning to go home?"
He asks and now that i think about it, I should. I hate driving in the dark
"I should get going"
I lie
"But.. you can.. stay longer.. if you want"
Bucky tells me
"Dahlia is expecting me"
"Is she even awake? I'm sure she wouldn't even notice" he holds out his hand
I sigh but then take his hand
"Fine"