History of You and Me

Chapter 21

Bucky

I'm making some late breakfast/early lunch as my phone rings.

Jessie..
We went on one date. Barley even that. It was more of an hour talk with some flirting.

I grab the phone and answer. Closely watching my food so it won't burn.

"Hello"
I say as if I didn't add her name to the contact
"Hey Bucky its Jessie"
"Oh Jessie hey. What's up?"
"I'm in town and I was wondering if we could get together or something"

I stare at the wall for a second. Do I really wanna do that today. I don't even really like this girl that much

"Uh sure"
I say
"Ok great. Do you think I could come over to your house. It might be more fun that way"
"Sure why not"
"Alright great"

She hangs up and I walk over to my fridge to see if I have beer. Not for us later but for me now.

Then I smell the air. My foods burning
"Shit"

Hours pass and I've tidying up my apartment a bit. Then she comes over. She's cut her hair to a shoulders since the last time I've seen her.
She gives me a big hug and a cheek kiss when she walks in.

We sit and catch up on each other's life. It's actually not too bad. I catch myself laughing and smiling. I don't know why I was trying to hold myself back from another girl

"I'm starved do you have some food"
"Anything other then beer? What's that"
I say making her laugh.

"I'll order some pizza"
I get up and grab the phone and order a small pizza.

A couple of minutes pass and we were both laughing a lot.
There's a loud knock at the door
"Must be the pizza. I'll get it"
I say getting up
"That was quick"
She says and I nod then go to the door and grab my wallet.

I open the door
But it's Diane
At first I'm excited to see her
But then it remember I have Jessie over
Oh no
"Oh hi- dee.."
I say as panic rushes through me
"You ok?"
She asks

She can tell. She's always called me out for my bullshit and could tell anytime I was hiding something. She's gonna figure it out

"Uh yeah"
I try to say normally
"No you're not. What's wrong?"
I knew it

I don't want Jessie or Dee to see each other so I walk out to the hallway and close the door behind me.

"What's up?"
I ask uncomfortably
What is she even doing here.
She looks upset or frustrated. I hope she's ok

"Do you have someone over..? I-I wanted to clear my mind and talk to some but-"
She stops
She's not ok. God how much I just want to comfort her and ask what's wrong but I can't. Why did I say he's to Jessie

I cant lie to her. So I just tell her the truth but before I can even finish she stops my words

"Okay. I-I'm gonna go.. I hope you have fun"
How could I possibly have fun when Dee is upset

I feel horrible
"Diane! Call me later? Or-or we could have dinner- or something. Anything you want!"
I yell. I want her to know I care
But she doesn't turn around
Diane isn't like that. She wouldn't turn around

I run my hands through my hair and let out a big sigh. I walk in and Jessie is on her phone

"Hey"
She says and I just sit back down
"Not the pizza?"
She asks and I shake my head

She starts to talk about something but I just can't listen.

I'm so stuck on Diane it's really getting to me. I wasn't this bad before. I was fine in the beginning of our friendship. By the time we were a little older around 18 or so it did get kinda bad but that all went away when I got drafted.
I didn't think about her much until I was in captivity. I thought about her and Steve the whole time they took me in the war.
For some reason when Steve saved me I had this funny feeling they'd recruit Dee but times were different they'd never take a women.

"Bucky.."
Jessie says taking me out of my thoughts
"Huh?"
"Are you listening?"
No
"Yes"

"You're thinking about another girl aren't you.."
Yes
"No"
"You're a horrible liar"
She says with a smile chuckle
She gets up
"I'd better go"
Then she just leaves

"Shit. Shit!"
I say getting up off the couch
"Why can't I get over her!"
I yell

Then I notice Jessie's coat on the couch and groan. I don't want to see her again that was embarrassing, the way she left.

I grab her coat and head for the stairs. I go to the door and just as I walk out i see Diane and Jessie talking.
Gee isn't that great....

"Jessie you forgot your jacket"
I quietly say walking over to her, and her to me. I keep looking at Diane. She looks cold and in need of a hug.

Jessie takes the jacket saying something I don't pay attention to.
She goes in for a kiss but my eyes widen at her, uncomfortable. I look at Diane. She's watching but not making it obvious

"I'd that the girl?"
She asks and I nod
"Oh.. ok.. well cya"
She walks away

The air is filled with awkwardness
But then Diane and I start to talk
She starts to cry at one point. I don't what's going on with her but all i want to do is hug her tight

"Dee.."
I say quietly walking over to her
"Do I rely on you too much?"
She randomly says
I rush to say
"No! No! I love it a-and I love you"
I love you too much Diane
"And I love that you do that."

I walk close to her and squish her into a hug