History of You and Me

Chapter 16

Diane was 18 Bucky was 19

I'd gotten a date with Johnny Smith. He was a dream. Every girl wanted him. We'd been flirting for a little while, and he finally asked me out. I may have been trying to go out with a guy to distract myself from my intense feelings for Bucky lately.

Steve helped me pick out a dress. He was the best wingman. He also stayed with me and talked about Johnny, and what to do on the date, and everything we could've possibly gone into about dates, while I did my makeup.

I looked myself in the mirror and smiled I felt the prettiest I've ever been. There was a knock at my door and I screamed to my mother upstairs that I would get it. Steve left out my back door not tp diatribe who I thought was Johnny at my door.
But it was just Bucky.
For a split second my heart felt like I was going on a date with bucky. But he was angry. It showed on his face

"What's your problem? And why are you here"
I ask him walking out and closing the door behind me
"Don't go out with Johnny"
He abruptly says
"What?"
"He's a piece of shit. Just trust me and don't go out with him"

Where was this coming from. Why was he trying to protect me? He's never done this before with any of the other guys I've dated or hung out with

"Buck I don't have time for this"
"He's not good for you Diane"
"You have no say in who I'm dating! You're not my brother,  you're not my dad, hell you're not even my mom. So stay out of it"
I say, both of our voices getting louder and louder each time we talk
"But Diane in your best friend. So I do have a say. I wouldn't lie to you about this sort of stuff."
My heart aches for how much he was trying to get through to me but I still didn't understand where this was coming from

"Not many popular guys go for me buck- not many guys in general go for me. I know you've slept with the whole town, doesn't mean I've done the same"
I was trying to hurt him now, for him to just leave me alone.
"Diane just listen to me"
He says sternly
I start to walk away but he takes my wrists and pulls me back to him
"Listen to me!"

I wish he would just stop. I cant give in. I wish I could but I just need to prove to everyone Johnny does like me. I can tell he does.

"Why!"
I yell at him
"I know what I'm saying. I've seen what he's done to other girls. He says shit to other guys that- he's a prick!  I know you don't want him and it's just to rub it in everyone's face you got Johnny"

He's right. But I can't tell him that
"You don't know me a-"
Before I can finish Bucky angrily spits out
"No you're the one who doesn't know me! I've never slept with anyone. I'm not like Johnny I won't go and fuck girls over to boost my ego. No I get the girls after they've gone with that asshole, and I hear the shit they talk about him"

Oh my god
I could just die right here right now
I feel like an asshole for assuming he's slept with girls and that he hears what girls say about Johnny.
I just wanted to start crying and hug bucky and for things to be ok. But I couldn't stop. Tears filled my eyes but I tried to blink them away.

I was starting to get choked up now that I was holding back tears
"W-well if johnnys going to hurt me. That's my choice to make. That's for me to figure out. I don't need you to protect me"
Tears ran down my cheeks.
I could tell Bucky felt bad that I was crying but he was still angry.
"Fine. Go. But when he hurts you. Don't expect me or Steve to be there for you when he does. That for you to figure out"

Bucky started to walk away but turned back and said "ya know.. all I ever want to do is protect you. Because you're my girl. And I love you"
He walks away and I fall onto the ground crying into my hands.

I didn't go to that date. But my friends told me he was with another girl at the place I was supposed to go out with him. But when I went out later that day I saw him. And he said horrible things to me and saying I'm the bad guy for standing him up. He got so close to hitting me before I just ran away.

I couldn't even tell Bucky or Steve about it. I just cried, a lot. Bucky and Steve and I weren't on speaking terms for two weeks. But in between those weeks Bucky at one point beat up Johnny for what he did to me. With also getting a black eye in the process.

After those weeks I knew in my heart I would never stop loving Bucky no matter how hard I tried to hide it.