History of You and Me

Chapter 36

~I recommend you play some jazz while you read this chapter. I recommend any frank Sinatra, Billy Holiday, Dean Martin, etc~

Diane

"Diane"
A voice says as I feel myself start to come to realization of my surroundings
"Diane.."
The voice repeats
I start to feel my eyes flutter open

"Hi sleepyhead"
Bucky says
I quickly sit up and fix my hair

Seeing him is so odd. I haven't seen him in a bit so seeing him here infront me is just a whole new experience
"I'm late"
He says with a small chuckle

"The irony"
I joke
Referring to how I was.. very.. late to our date and now he's late to "mine"

"I'm sorry. With all of my heart I'm truly and utterly sorry Bucky"
I say jumping off the barstool
My heels making a click as the reach the ground
"I know. I heard and read that a lot from you"
"So you were listening and reading my stuff..?"
"Of course I was"

For some reason I felt deep down that he was truly ignoring me

"Well I just wanted to talk to you. You're my best friend and I feel horrible whenever we're apart.. I came to the 21st century and stalked you for gods sake I couldn't be without you"
I half jokingly say

"Do you think it changed you?"
He says catching me off guard
"What did?"
I ask
"Coming to.. now"
"Well.. not crazily but you always change when you're going somewhere new"

He nods
I can really tell if that's the answer he wanted or not

The air is filled with awkward silence so I just look to the ground

"Do you love me Diane?"
He asks making my head fly up to look at him practically almost giving me whiplash
"What..?"
My heart starts to beat heavily in my chest

"You want to talk so im going to bring out all the stuff we've been putting off talking about"
He's right but im not sure I was prepared for this to happen

"Right.. well- yes.. of course I do"
"But I mean in more than a friend way"

I've been waiting for this question for so very long. But yet I'm somehow in shock from it

"Yes"
I firmly say
"How long?"
He asks
"Since my 16th birthday"
I tell

He bites his bottom lip and shakes his head slightly
"What about you?"
I ask him
He looks at me and answers
"Since I met you"

Holy shit
His confession sends chills down my spine
He's liked me for.. that long?

"I thought you wanted nothing to with me"
I scoff
"Nothing to do- No everyday I wish we would just get together. I had made amends with you in the past and I thought I was over you but those feels we're back and stronger than ever"

"I thought you were just too busy with other girls to get with me. I would always compare myself to those plus ones and dates and girls you were with and I'd think 'i could be prettier'  'my hair could be shiner' 'but I'll never look like them'.."
I say letting out a sigh afterwords. I had never told anyone that. But it was something I'd always think about

"Compare..? Diane I used those girls to get my mind of you."
Shit I didn't know that..

"We're talking a whole lot about the past. B-But now it's been seeming like you were the one until a week or two ago was uninterested
I say softly and he lets out a breathe

"I love you. A lot."
"I don't believe you really mean that"
"But I do I really-I love you so much a-and I love how you're the last person I want to talk to before I go to bed. And I love how you always put your hair in ponytail over any other hairstyle. I love how you get dressed up to go no where. I love how you do grand gestures for the people you care about. I love how we continued our cheek kisses because it was our thing. I love that after spending the day with you I can still smell your perfume on my clothes.  And I love how you risked your life just to try and be with me again."

I just look at him as tears roll down my cheeks.
Wow I can't believe he just said that

"I can't believe it took us 20 'real' years but really a whole century to figure this out"
I sniffle

Bucky hands me a napkin from behind the counter
I just chuckle

"Do you still hate me?"
I ask him
He thinks for a second
"Only a little bit"

He took a few steps to me then I soon found his arms around my waist and his lips pressed to mine. We had kissed before but this one felt so much more real and raw and so full of love

I wrapped one arm around his neck and another pressed to his chest. I soon found myself brushing my hands through his soft hair.

My eyelids slowly opened as I relaxed myself to take a step back
"I've always wanted to kiss you like that"
He says making me laugh

I take his hand and he pulls me forward and kissed my cheek
"We should go somewhere"
He says softly
"Agreed"
I say with bright eyes

I turn off the lights as we walk out
Bucky tries to drag me to his motorcycle but I have to stop and lock the door but then I jump on the back of his motorcycle

"Wrap your arms around me. I don't want you falling off"
He instructs so I do just that.
He stops at a diner but they were closing just as we walked in so we decided to get milkshakes to go.
The place wasn't far from buckys apartment so we walked there.

"How are you even walking in those heels"
"Carefully"
I say so he squeezes my hand with a smile making me giggle.

In his apartment the familiar surrounds greet me.
We sit down on the sofa drinking what was left of our milkshakes and just talking
When it was getting near to 12 I sighed
"I really should go buck"
"I know I just don't want you to go"

"Goodnight Bucky"
I start to stand up by he takes me by my waist and pulls me back down
"Hey!"
I laugh

"Bucky I've gotta go"
"What's that suppose to mean"
"It means Goodnight and I'm leaving"

I kiss lips softly then I kiss deeply kiss him.
"Goodnight"
I whisper and get up

He follows to me the door
"I have to drive you home. You left your car there"
"I'll call a car"

I grab the door handle but he takes my hand and places one of his hoodies in my hand
"It's cold"

I pause to slip it over my head
"Perfect"
He says to me
"Thank you. Good night"
I say in a flat tone now opening the door.
He leans against the door frame
"Good night"
I say walking out into the hallway his eyes following me as I leave

"Good night, Buck"
I say, now standing in the hallway with him.
"Night"
He says softly.

I rest my hands on his cheeks and give him one more kiss before I retreat down the stairs.
While I was turning to the stairs I had noticed Celia was walking out and saw some of that interaction

Getting in a cab I just felt my heart thumping. What a dream.