Thy Biggest Revelation

TBR 23

// Aiugami Lynslay Mentessi Wickerille //

Everyone sees me as a traitor. As a villainess. 

They want to kill me with their stares. They want to stab me multiple times for making them suffer. They want to bury me alive. They want me to die. 

In the eyes of everyone, I'm a selfish and cruel princess. In the eyes of my family, I'm a traitor. But in myself, I'm just doing my job to protect my people. 

I'm the eldest Daughter of the Mentessi Wickerille Family and bound to sacrifice my dignity.

No one sees my worth but they always see my mistakes. 

My siblings, I thought they trust me but they really do not. I thought they loved me enough to risk their trust on me but they really did not. I thought... I just thought. I'm really a traitor and foolish princess in their eyes. The eldest princess is unworthy to be given justice.

Every single night, I cry a lot. I know I'm stupid but not stupid enough to not know their sufferings and longing. I always consider their feelings and thoughts in everything but I don't understand why they don't feel the same too.

"Please protect your sisters and brother, my baby. Not just because you are strong, but because you love them. I trust you not because you are the eldest, I trust you because I trust your kindest love for us." My mother said softly as she kissed my forehead and gently caressed my hair. 

A tear began to fall as I remembered everything. As I looked at my mother's grave, my heart broke into many pieces and my body began to tremble.

"I'm sorry... Mother." Nanginginig kong bulong at mas lalong humagulgol. 

I failed, Mother. I failed to save our family and everyone. 

I'm sorry.

Bumuhos ng malakas ang ulan kaya pakiramdam ko dinadaluhan ako ng langit sa nasasaktan kong puso. Sa aking pag-iisa. Sa walang kwenta kong nararamdaman. 

"I killed her fiancé because he was planning to rape my sister, Father." Nangingilid ang luhang sumbong ko sa ama at tinago ang mukha sa mga palad. "I'm sorry! I'm really sorry for losing myself!" 

Naramdaman kong niyakap niya ako at marahang hinaplos ang likod para patahanin. "I understand, Aiugami. I understand." Malambing niyang sabi at masuyong tinanggal ang mga kamay ko sa mukha para mapunasan niya ang mga luha ko. "Father is not mad at you. Father understands Aiugami's reason because she only wants to protect her sister." 

Umiiyak akong tumango habang nakatitig sa mga mata niyang malambot na nakatingin sa akin. 

"Y-you will not punish me, Father?" Pangungumpirma ko na kinatango niya. Mabilis ko siyang niyakap at mas lalong umiyak. "Thank you, Father. Thank you!"

Father and I decided to hide the truth from everyone. We don't want Aiukami to have a trust issue with people she will meet. Ang kailangan ko lang gawin ay paalalahanin siya tungkol sa lalaking susunod na pipiliin.

"Why did you kill him, Aiugami?" Umiiyak niyang tanong sa akin na may hinanakit sa boses. 

I tried to reach her hand but she pulled it away.

"Kami, please calm down," nag-aalalang alo sa kanya ni Aiutami pero dismayado siyang tumingin sa akin.

"You don't have to know the truth, Kami. Tanggapin mo na lang na wala na siya." Nagagalit at nasasaktan kong sabi sa kanya. 

"You are just jealous of us!" Galit niyang sigaw. "I hate you, Gami!" 

"Understand me, Aiukami!" I shouted back.