ULTRAVIOLET [✔]

[11] The attack

LISA POV

I couldn't believe she was here! She looked so cold and distant earlier tonight that I really thought I had lost her before I even got a real chance with her. I really couldn't seem to make up my mind! On the one hand I had decided not to pursue her romantically, despite my feelings. But on the other hand, I wanted her close to me all the time, and not just as a friend.

The kisses that my little witch and I shared in the darkness of my tent were so different from last night. They weren't rushed. They weren't leading to us undressing each other hastily. Instead, they were long and slow. But just as deep.

Jennie had turned around in my embrace after a while to face me. It made kissing more comfortable. I pulled her in and held her close. Breathing in her scent, revelling in the softness of her lips. My fingers glid through her long, silky black hair.

She triggered my powers over and over again, sending me warm waves of feelings. I was more than aware that Jennie did in fact feel something for me. I also felt that she wasn't quite sure herself what exactly she felt but it was definitely something. 

That was enough reassurance for me that this wasn't one-sided.

However, burried quite deep in her heart, I could also sense fear. 

Jennie wasn't just confused by her feelings for me. She was scared of them! Maybe she was even more scared than I was, I realized.

"I really like this..." I blurted out breathlessly against her lips. Feeling her smirk against me, she answered teasingly. "I'm just using you Lisa, don't get attached." Before she sucked on my lower lip lazily.

You have no idea how attached we already are... I thought to myself.

The pull inside of me felt so fucking satisfied at having my... at having Jennie in my arms as intimately as this.

"Stay here with me... every night. I want you with me!" I declared between kisses. My fluttering chest made me say stupid things like that but I really meant them.

"What? So you can brag about fucking me to the guys again?" Jennie scolded me but didn't let go of my lips. Instead she bit me painfully. I hissed. I deserved that. She snickered.

"I'm an asshole sometimes..." I moved my lips to her fluffy cheeks and kissed my way across her face. "...but I swear I did not mean what I said to them! There's a ... connection between us and I know you can feel it too." I kissed her closed eyelids while she was listening to me.

I felt her fear flare up stronger and she started pushing at my shoulders to get some distance between us. I did not let her. Gently holding her close while my lips wandered to her ear.

"I'm really sorry Jennie! I'll be good to you from now on." I whispered out promises on her soft skin.

"Lisa..." Jennie cleared her throat a little. "I... I... am fully aware that I can't hide anything from you... which is... more than frustrating..." 

I continued placing soft kisses to her cheeks and forehead while letting her speak.

"... and I can't tell you what I want, because I don't know!" She huffed out a little frustrated and shoved at my shoulders with more force this time, making me back up so she could look into my eyes.

It was the first time, that we were actually adressing what was between us. At least on the surface because I still stood by my decision not to tell Jennie what the real deal was with me and her.

"That's ok. I don't know either! But I know that I like having you by my side... in whatever way you grant me..." We held eye contact.

Sure, she was sexy as hell and I wanted her body, but I also wanted to hold her hand, protect her, kiss her goodnight and good morning and just simply be with her. Those thoughts were so strange to me but with her soft body in my arms and her ocean eyes locked with mine, they sounded a little less scary.