ULTRAVIOLET [✔]

[25] The medium

 JENNIE POV

"He's a medium!" I told her again.

"Babe, I heard you... I just don't know what that is..." Lisa told me a bit sheepishly. I realized she really didn't know as much about the different kinds of magic in this world as I did. 

She kept eating while staring me down, urging me to explain. 

"He is human but he has a special ability that comes quite in handy for magical folk." I started off. "He can amplify magic and channel it in different ways. He doesn't have any magic himself but he's like a... a booster... if he taps into it from somebody else."

"Like us. He boosted us, I felt it!" Lisa revelled in curious excitement at my revelation about the quiet boy who hated my guts.

"We couldn't have done it without him... not yet at least..." My fingers unconsciously fidgeted with the blanket Lisa was still halfway under. 

"What do you mean, not yet...?"

Oh, she caught that. I fidgeted some more. "Remember when I told you... that he said faye soulmates could get insanely powerful together?"

Lisa nodded silently, still eating. 

"Well... he said he was only amplifying what was already there. My powers merging with yours. He said if we were... connected even more... we'd have that sort of power when working together." I blushed a bit because I was sure Lisa knew what Suga meant by 'connected even more'.

It meant commited. 

The two of us being one for real. For good. 

Lisa just nodded again. Her eyes flew down to the bowl in her lap and she was staring hard as if thinking. I thought I knew what she was thinking in this very moment. The second that Suga told me, I couldn't help but think that that was exactly the kind of power that would get us and our friends out of this hellhole of a forest alive. 

But knowing myself, Lisa and I would most likely never get as far as a real commitment. I was sure I was gonna screw it up again at some point. 

Although I had to admit that I did feel very uneasy for the two days that Lisa refused to wake up. I knew she was healing and just sleeping. She wasn't fighting for her life like I had all those weeks ago. I knew she would wake up again eventually but I had constantly worried nevertheless. 

I had watched over her as much as I could and when I needed a bit of air, I asked somebody else to watch her. It meant that I cared. And it didn't feel as horrifyingly scary anymore that I felt this way about her. It felt ok because Lisa was important.

I had thought back to her telling me how the thought of me never waking up again had almost destroyed her. It had made her realize that she couldn't bear to loose me. It was the moment she had fully accepted me as her mate. With all my flaws. Because her feelings were stronger than her fear or her ego.

Maybe... just maybe... this was me going through the same stages. Only a lot later than her.

"How's Jisoo?" Lisa ended the silence that lay between us while she had been pondering on what I had said. She simply accepted Suga's coming out as a medium not bothering to wonder why he had kept that detail about himself so long from all of his friends, including her. She probably understood why he did it. I did too actually, after hearing only as little as a fraction of his story.

"She's... ok... given the circumstances... worried, of course, but she's strong" I told her, nodding my head. 

"What about you? You couldn't go to the river while I was passed out..."