Different Shades of Pink and Green/ matchablossom 🍵🌸

A Little Bit of Everthing

I kept zoning out
Nothing was clear to me.
Just memories that
used to be realities

Adam's pov:
I was standing on the side, after being left alone, looking from the distance the green hair man and the pink hair man talking and getting closer with every word.

I didn't like it but I also didn't know why

I hated being alone but I was always alone. Since the very beginning I never felt full. Craving until I got too used to this empty sensation. I didn't feel the need to ask for anything anymore but I still hated it. Maybe I just got used to hating what I couldn't get. Maybe I am still hungry for love or just maybe Cherry did mean something to me. "No way" I said under my breath.

Being lost in my thoughts I just didn't notice that the two figures that were in front me had left. Scanning the place for them, I see Cherry dragging Joe into a dark tiny corner and then suddenly disappearing.

I walk toward the secret, mysterious area slowly trying to escape Tadashi. I didn't want him to get involved in this. He always followed me and that pissed me off. I couldn't find any time to be alone or to think without feeling a presence lurking behind me. It pissed me off.

As I got closer to the dark meeting place, I checked behind me to see if I was being followed by that stupid dog. No one. I felt relieved.

"Ko, I regret it being close to Adam... but before I didn't know and..."

Regret. He did.  Well... I only have one thing to say Cherry: Maybe I never even cared but I was craving a heart, and Cherry had one. Now that I know how you truly feel I will make you really regret meeting me. Cherry and Joe were just pathetic. As if they could last forever. What a dream.

I looked away from the dark alley, and walked far from the crowd. People were running after me, cheering for me and asking me questions. I stayed quiet, smiling and feeling so high.

I started to speed my pace, until I was away from everyone. I rested my back on the wall and as I was staring at the crowd in front of me when I remembered that day when the three of us (Cherry, Joe and me) were in high school. We were around 17 years old and I had just gotten closer to those two.
Cherry used to sit and stair at Joe a lot. He would sometimes stop hearing what I would be saying. It was obvious that he had a thing for Joe since forever ago. But it was pissing me off.

I could never forget the way Cherry looked at me, that time when he almost fell of his board and I grabbed him. He looked at me as if I was amazing. A light was burning in his eyes. I felt happy...? But after that day, he kept looking the other way. Looking at Joe. Why?

What did Joe had that I didn't?

I hated it.

"You know he will never like someone with a dick. Even if you looked feminine and grew your hair taller, you are still a man in his eyes. He won't accept you" I said to Cherry, looking at the green haired man that is skating in front of us.

"What the fuck Adam?" Cherry looked at me as if he was about to cry at any moment. The light was long gone. His eyes were blanc. Empty looking at me.

"I'm saying that Joe will never love someone like you." I said again, this time making it more clear, purposely hurting him even more.