Different Shades of Pink and Green/ matchablossom 🍵🌸

Rumble - Side Story #1

Greediness is poison
It is all I ever knew.
Nothing was ever enough
I always needed more
Even when I had it all.

Adam's pov:

No matter how much I tried to ruin their relationship, they always found a way to get back together. No matter how I tried to make them suffer they always found a way to laugh. It is annoying. I hate it! My ears were about to melt from all their joy and laughter.

"DAMN IT" my voice echoed in this empty dark room. I sat behind my large desk, a whiskey glass in my right hand, and a smoke in the other. I didn't care anymore who finds out. I was ready to get hated by my aunts, or even hit as much as they wanted. Maybe then I would feel something. Anything.

"Why is it that I have to sacrifice everything since I was a kid?" I whispered, searching for anything that could bring me any comfort. But how can I search for something I am not familiar with?

What is comfort?

I lost my mother at a very young age, I searched for her warmth in my father, but he was never around, expect when I needed discipline. He would always find his way back to me. It eventually felt normal not seeing him much.

After a while of giving up, my aunt appeared and started to take care of me. My father asked them to keep an eye on me. I felt like dying. I couldn't breathe. But they told me they cared for me. That everything they did was because they loved me.

A hit for speaking when I wasn't allowed
A hit for eating cake when it was not the time
A hit for answering wrong
A hit for not wanting to sleep
A hit because I cried from being hit

But my worst injury was from that time
When I decided to make my first friend. 

He was a little taller than me. He would always smile no matter the situation. Most of the time it felt forced but whenever we were together it felt real as if his heart was smiling. We were happy.

But...
It was not allowed.
Happiness wasn't allowed.

In fact,

This is what I hated the most about Kojiro and Kaoru.
No matter what they went through they kept on believing in this so-called happiness.
Smiling and laughing as if they truly found it.

No matter what I did, they would always grab onto each other, as if having someone makes you happy. Ha... what a joke.

I had someone.
I knew the feeling. All a lie.
It only brought me misery and new scars.

"Sir, I have an update about mister Kojiro and Koaru" a voice interrupted my thoughts as he entered the office.

Even if I wanted to escape his grasp, I was destined to face my pain every day, every second of my life.

"WHAT NOW!?" his faces made me itch all over. He kept quiet.

Knowing that he was so close yet far of my touch, knowing that he is just my secretary and nothing more, killed me. I wanted to die so many times, to escape this life of mine.

Everything was planned... even my death. I was just another doll for my father to play with. Fuck!

"Sir..." he managed to let out. It angered me. It made me mad that I was a "sir" to him.

I used to be Adam. He used to smile as he yelled my name.

Now it's just "sir". A wall created between us... for the benefit of my "future". Fuck it!

"What? Tell me!"

He nodded. It felt like I'm talking to a robot. A fucking machine. It made me want to break everything in my office.

"After a week of not seeing each other, Mister Kojiro hears the truth from Haru, Mister Kaoru's friend, and rushes to his house. He made a fuss outside the house until Mister Kaoru opened the door. It seems that they stayed the night together." A pause before he spoke again "That's all, sir."

At this point, the only solution for them to suffer seemed to be death. If one of them ceased to exist, then the other will suffer a great amount of pain. Like I did... all those years.

Why just me! why!

"Sir I think it is best..." a long pause before he continued "to stop all of this..." here it was. My limit. Now I was ready to explode.

"WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU SAY?" I yelled, throwing the glass to the wall behind him. I tried my best not to aim and hurt him, but my hands were shaking, and I was slowly losing control. I was about to explode. My veins were pumping, and my heart was about to burst. I was so angry, and I wanted to show him, to make him feel my madness.

"Sir" He tried to speak.

"SIR THIS, SIR THAT! FUCK! ALL YOU EVER SAY IS 'SIR'! IF YOU DARE SAY SIR ONE MORE TIME, I SWEAR I WILL- I SWEAR..." I couldn't finish my sentence. As much as I wanted to say "kill" I couldn't. "I WISH WE NEVER MET!" I finally let out. my breathing stayed rapid for a while before I managed to look straight in his eyes.

And I wish I hadn't looked.

"I'm sorry...." He let out. Staring at the floor, he lost all strength. He felt like he was about to collapse any moment.

"DO YOU EVER – never mind..." What was I going to say to him... if he ever cared? What a joke.

I wanted to disappear.

"You are worthless. A nobody. Remember where your place is, dog. It will never be beside me!" he looked like he was shaking, but he stood far away from me. I couldn't see what was happening with him. It pissed me off.

"I'm so- I'm sorry" his voice was trembling. Something was definitely wrong.

"SHUT THE FUCK UP" Why was he sorry? I never know what he is thinking.

He stayed silent. Not a word, not a move... nothing. Here I was ready to erupt from anger while he stayed cold. Not a single reaction. Yelling seemed to have no more effect on him. He seemed like he didn't care anymore, and I was furious. He used to run after me, call my name.

Now he was just a corpse.
Empty
Frozen
.
.
.
Dead to me.

He used to be my only friend.
But he brought me pain.
I learnt to cry because of him.

Still...
Why can't I let him go?

After what seemed to be an eternity of silence he finally said: "I'll quit".

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🌸Thank you for reading! I hope you enjoyed it! Reminder I am not trying to give a reason for his rotten behavior but I believe everyone has a story that needs to be heard. I am not trying to explain or defend his action. What he did is unforgivable but he you all deserve to know where he comes. Plus we never knew what happened to him after Joe and Cherry reunite 🌸
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