Different Shades of Pink and Green/ matchablossom 🍵🌸

The Unknown

Warning: This chapter will contain smut and some bdsm.

I finally had my answer
The unknown is an illusion
Never to be seen or understood
We work so hard to find it
That we lost what is right in front of us
Reachable and visible.

Joe's pov:

I looked at his face. His tears painted a masterpiece. Messy yet beautiful. Everything felt like stars; he shined in the dark. I couldn't take my eyes off him. I held him tighter and breathed. Nothing special, just a simple gesture, but he sobbed even harder. I knew for the first that he was okay. He was crying because he felt safe and comfortable. He had finally realized the meaning behind my words. I have finally achieved the impossible.

"I will never let you go." I probably said it a million times, feeling like it wasn't enough. I always hated when he cried, but for tonight, I wanted him to let it all out. The eight years of pain he had to carry, the thoughts he had to hear by himself and the memories that he had to see every time he closed his eyes. He deserved some peace... at least for tonight.

He was fragile.

"Ko..." he let out under me.

"Yes, baby?"

"You know... I never thought I would have someone to call my own. Even now, I feel like today will not last forever. Nothing is promised. We are humans, after all."

"But I am here."

"I know... but..."

"Kaoru... let it out."

"You know... ever since I was young, I felt like I was fated to be alone. That I didn't need anyone that is why I was probably mean or aggressive... in the way I behaved or talked. But what if I was lonely and needed someone? I made myself believe that love was just a beautiful concept only worth portraying in art. That's probably why I wanted to be a calligrapher." I giggled. "Maybe I just wanted to meet love for once. Little did I know, it wouldn't be a dumb drawing or a line I read in a book..." he stopped and grabbed my face in his hand. "It was a stupid teenager that I would meet on a Monday morning. Someone that kept on going after me even when I made myself believe that I was better without them. I tried to escape the grasp of this human, but he just wouldn't let go. It's kind of ironic because I still, even today, convince myself that I wanted to leave him when in fact, all I wanted was someone to need me. I didn't want to leave."

"Baby... well, guess what?"

"Hmm," he hummed as he played with my hair.

"I am indeed dumb. I am dumb for not realizing what you needed."

"It's not your fault! You couldn't possibly know!" he jumped a little, fearing that I misunderstood him.

"Shhh... calm down. Let me finish." He relaxed back on the bed, holding my hand tightly, making sure that there was no way of escape. "To be honest, I can't remember how and when I fell in love with you. I always knew you were special to me... More than I thought, and one day you were just too important to let go. Don't get me wrong. I never wanted to let you go from the very beginning. But I would be lying if I said I didn't have my doubts. After you dated Adam, I thought that maybe it was also time for me to move on. So, yes... I started dating a lot of women. But none of them filled the void you built inside of me. You made me want you even more, to the point that I couldn't wake up without hearing your voice. I love you, Kaoru. I could have prevented all of that if I just realized..."