Different Shades of Pink and Green/ matchablossom 🍵🌸

The Truth, My Truth. - Part 3

It was just like thunder
Loud and fast
Barely time to prepare
I froze.

Joe's pov:

I searched everywhere for Kaoru. Nowhere. I felt stupid and dumb for being all jealous of his and Adam's relationship. I witnessed how Kaoru looked at Adam, how he blushed whenever he called his name. I was just in the shadows and that made me anxious of losing him. But with time I started to hate the idea of them spending time alone and being close to each other. Before I was able to do anything, I was drowning in jealousy and there was no way back up.

I started to talk less.
Then I started leaving early.
Then I found myself crying to sleep.
Then avoiding him
Hurting him
Abandoning him... "I'm such a shitty best friend." Do I even have the right to call myself this?

But on this night, when I thought I lost all hope, I received a message from him... my heart was racing out of my chest. I was debating with myself if I should open the message or not, fearing the worst. After a few minutes of contemplating the lighted screen, I managed to open the message sent by Kaoru.

Chat between Kojiro and Kaoru:

Kaoru <3: I miss you.

My heart almost stopped beating. I didn't know how to breath or talk. I felt like I was thrown in a dream with no way out. I couldn't believe my eyes. I paused and waited for a 'Oops sorry, wrong person...' or 'Forget it'. But none of this happened.

Kaoru <3: Ko, please come. I need you.

After hearing those words, I took a deep breath before placing my fingers on the keyboard, answering him.

Me: Where are you?

Kaoru <3: Home

End of conversation.

Without another thought in my head, I rushed toward his house, running like my life depended on it. I reached his house within few minutes, only to hear screaming. It was Kaoru's mom. I expected this to happen. I was hesitant to ring the doorbell... what if I made things worse. But before I could make any decisions on whether to ring or not to ring the doorbell, the door opened, and a familiar figure appeared before my eyes. A small pause, our eyes examining each other. I was afraid to approach him... I had those constant 'what if' scenarios where he would push me away or yell at me or even worst be disappointed that I showed up instead of Adam.

"Why didn't you ring?" He asked, breaking the silence.

"Huh- I mean- I just... I heard screaming and I wasn't sure if it was appropriate to ring the door..." I managed to explain, before looking back down to the ground, feeling embarrassed.

"Since when- ugh never mind... let's go somewhere else. I don't want to be here." He purposely yelled loud and clear, making sure his mom would hear him.

"Kaoru, you sure?" I asked, hoping I could rationalize with him. But it was useless.

He grabbed my hand and dragged me to some bench, near his house. He got us drinks from the vending machine before sitting in total silence, looking at the dark sky above us.

"Where were you?" I asked.

I deep breath: "At a friend." He plainly answered.

"Was it Ad..."

"No!" he yelled, interrupting me. It was clear to me that he was mad. "Why would I be with a fucking loser like him!" he continued.