Different Shades of Pink and Green/ matchablossom 🍵🌸

The Truth, My Truth. - Part 1

>>>Author's note: I just wanted to start this chapter by giving you warning. From this chapter forward, there will be heavy and dark content such as rape, abuse, self degradation and so much more sensitive topics. If you can't handle it PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF FIRST! REMEMBER YOU COME FIRST. Plus.... I know it is hard for a lot of you that had to go through dark path in their life. It is not easy and definitely not beautiful. I might not share the same exact experiences like some of you but I do have my own ugly demons. That is why, just know that if you ever want to talk to someone, I will be here to listen. Everything will stay confidential. I just want to help, if I can. You all deserve to smile and be happy. That is something not forbidden or unreachable. Rather it is there, waiting for us! It is a safe place, I promise.

To have a better experience then play the song "I found" by Amber Run. Sorry in advance.

I called your name
In the void
In the darkness
Nothing.

Cherry's pov:

Dear readers,

I know you been all witnessing my life, through my words, my thoughts and my feelings. My actions are as clear as snow. But here you are all wondering one question: WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU, CHERRY? WHAT IS YOUR SECRET?

I know it was wrong of me to keep it for this long, but I wished to resolve everything without ever having to mention this matter to anyone.

I did mistakes that I regret so much. I was wrong, so I will apologies: I am sorry! The author is also here to apologies, because it is not just my story but our story.

We are sorry!

It is going to be a long ride so please put your seatbelts on and enjoy this rollercoaster... even though it will not be very pleasant to hear.

Sincerely,
With love,
Cherry & Author.

[Author's note: this chapter will start now. This is a flashback to when Adam, Cherry and Joe were in high school. We will start to uncover bit by bit the backstory of Cherry and his secrets. Beware... it was their last year of high school. They were all 17 turning 18 years old.]

I been sitting on the bench, in a small skate park, trying to calm my head. I been feeling for the past two days a strong headache. At first the pain was tolerable but as time went by, I couldn't function normally. My daily routine was being a mess. I been avoiding my chores and homework, not that I care much. However, what pissed me off the most is the fact that I couldn't skateboard like usual because of this stupid migraine. I told Adam, but he didn't care much. He went every night skateboarding with his friends in those illegal and dangerous places and Joe... well he been acting different with me.

A month ago, Adam confessed to me. I accepted it without thinking twice. I knew I wasn't in love with him. The only person I ever cared for was Ko. But Ko was unreachable and just not for me. He always flirted with the girls and had probably slept with them. While he was living his life, here I was, dreaming of the day when I could tell him about my real emotions without making things weird between us or to lose him. Ha! What a joke. Who am I kidding? He would never be with me!

Getting in a relationship with Adam might help me move on from this one-sided love. Maybe I will get to know what happiness was like. But my worst nightmare had already begone: Joe was avoiding the shit out of me. Every time I tried talking to him, he would come up with the stupidest lie ever. I knew how to read him.

I looked up to the dark starry sky and took a deep breath.

"What the hell Ko... and here I was trying to make things better... why are you like this?" I whispered under my breath. It wasn't cold, but I was shivering at the thought of Ko leaving me for good. It was too early for it to happen. "What time is it?" I looked at my phone. I flinched my eyes a little, reacting to the screen light. "Damn... time sure pass fast. Oh, look at that..." I said, looking at the date: 27 March 2012. "It is today. Can I get any luckier? First my boyfriend ditch me to play skateboarding with his friends, then my best friend avoids me and today I was left alone on my birthday. "FUCK!" I yelled, throwing my bag to the floor, in front of me!

"What is all that for?" A strange voice startled me. I turned around, seeing a tall man. He was barely visible because it was dark, but I could make up his general features. He had dark wavy hair, his physic was well built, and his face was... pretty.

"Who are you?" I asked, confused.

He chuckled: "I was passing by, heading to the convenient store nearby to buy some beer when I heard a noise coming from here. I thought someone was in danger or needed help, so I rushed as fast as I could. And here you were, throwing a bag on the floor." He chuckled again. It pissed me off... was he making fun of me?

"You can go back to what you were doing... it's none..."

"None of my business, right? Listen kid, I know it is. But I don't remember asking for your life story. I was just making sure you were okay. But..." he looked at me from head to toe "but it is clear to me that with this feisty attitude, you are just fine. So, I will be going". He turned around and started to walk back to where he was going. All I could feel was guilt for acting this way. He just wanted to make sure I was okay and here I went and lashed out at him. FUCK.

"WAIT! SIR!" I screamed, making the tall man turn back without hesitation toward me.

"Yes?" he said, smirking. Oh, that fucker! He did it on purpose. He wanted me to feel guilty.

"I-I'm... sorry" I managed to say. My voice was low and faint, but I was sure he heard it. At least now I didn't have to feel guilty.

"I will gladly accept this apology, but you really hurt my feelings... what to do?" he playfully said.

I took a deep breath and was about to collect my stuff, leaving him. He was annoying me, and I was not in the mood for any joking around. "I am leaving. I apologized. I don't think there anything I can do more." I said, picking my bag from the floor.

"Oh, come on! You are in bad mood, that's obvious and I was supposed..." he stopped for second "To be in love with my lover but guess what... they found better." He forced a laugh.

I sighed, "What do you want me to do?" I said, after a small silence.

"What?" he looked confused.

"Are you dumb? Don't you remember you asking me to repay my rudeness just few minutes ago..." he smiled a little before looking to the side.

"No, it's fine. I was messing with you. If anything, I should be the one saying sorry to you. I was being annoying and ignoring the fact that you are not in the mood to chat. I just...." He paused for a second before continuing, "I think I just needed someone to talk to after what happened to me. I am so lame"

"Well, I could listen if you want to?" I didn't know what came into my mind, but my words just escaped my mouth. It was too late to take it back, especially with him in this condition but maybe it would make me feel better, somehow.

"it's getting dark, want to go back to my house, I made diner." He proposed, smiling.

If Ko was here, he would have slapped me for considering the idea of going home with a total stranger. I didn't care anymore. He left me, ignored me and I was left in pain. What was even worst was that he wouldn't even explain what I did wrong. FUCK YOU KO! I couldn't... shit... I didn't want to cry. I looked at the ground, calming myself down. I wanted him more than anything. I wanted him to hug me and wish me a happy birthday. Maybe we could have made a cake together. He always used to bake the cake... it was adorable. I missed him like crazy. I loved him. But right now, I didn't care no more. Fuck my life. I just wanted to be loved and to have fun. "Sure" I replied, emptiness in my voice.

"Let's grab some snacks and drinks on the way" he suggested.

"Fine."

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