Sleeping with a lie

(9)

Hey guys! Before I start, thanks for the reads. I seriously never thought my book would make it this far. Tysm.

Theo led me in a room covered in paintings and black and white filtered photos. As his hand let go of mine, I  linger around the space.

"What is this?"

"A room I like to call, Relaxation." Theo presented. "Cool huh?"

"Yeah."

He lied back on the bed with his legs in a v-shape. Turning back on my heels, he sighed beginning to talking about who knows what. Dropping my purse, I sat over his waist.

"Hi-ya." Theo says.

"Sit up."

Holding his face to mine, he gazed in my eyes like they were a photo.

"Ansel never treated me like this," I say. "He'd kiss me and we would be fighting right after. With you, it's like I'm another person. I can..." I pulled at his shirt, taking if off. "Trust you..." all the while talking, I took off our clothing.

"Enlightenment is key." He says wisely. Our lips parted against one another, slowly. Passionatly I kissed his warm skin.

Mmm. I thought.

"Shailene."  Theo says. "I don't want to put you in a-"

I blocked his next word massaging my lips on his. Backing away, I smile down on him.

"Stop Talking, and just enjoy what you have right in front of you." I say. "Please."

He nods, our mouths conjoined.

Minutes later my bra came loose, so did my pants unzip. I lightly clenched on the covers.

"Do you think I'm a bad mother?" I ask.

He stopped kissing my thigh. Looking up.

"What do you mean?"

"Belle can't ever know about this, and so on. Growing up she will ask about her father separating from her mother, and-" tears made thier way in. "Her mother cheating on her Dad with a insanely hot guy who's like, her best friend."

His body slithered to my torso again. Theo places his forearms on either side of me, in a push up position.

"Sure, she's gonna find out sooner or later. Belle is a celebrities child. She's going to be brought into a lot of bull. Right now, Shai, you need to only about her being alive."

I looked off. "Okay. Can we get back to were we were?"

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I dried my hair in the shower, letting my pixie cut fall into a a bob. Today Belle and I had another doctor's appointment. Over the course of 15 months, the tumor would be the size of a golf ball. Dr. Kleen is trying her hardest to stop it from reaching the spinal cord, paralyzing her. Bad thing is, Ansel is going to be there. Not that I highly despise of him. No. Seeing him with another woman who probably was a fan of his, it's horrid.

"I'm leaving." I excused before I left the apartment.

"Love you." he says waving.

THOSE WORDS HIT ME LIKE A TRUCK.

"Love you too." I had to say it.

Walking to the hospital in a grey jumpsuit and black flats, I text Clara. She's already there.
Shai Clara

Belle is asleep now right?

Yeah. Dr. Kleen wanted me to tell you she's going to need an important procedure done on her, so think it through.

How can I think it through when I'm almost five minutes from there?

Think, Shai.

We'll talk when we get there.

Signing in the hospital receptionist, entering Belle's room, Dr. Kleen typed on the computer.

"Clara Just left. Ansel is down the hallway getting coffee." She says still typing. "Have a seat."

"Belle is doing good for eating," She says. "Her nutrition is halfway there as expected to be. But her progress needs to be around a babies age of 14 months."

"What age is she now?"

"10." She replied.

I nod, a male nurse who had a pair of white gloves in his hands.

"Good afternoon Miss. Shailene. Everything doing well, eating healthily, inducing more water intake?" He smacked on mint-bubble gum.

Cool air breezes me over as I lie on my back.

*WARNING! This part may be on the side of PG-13, So if you feel the need for commenting how this that and the third works, please don't. Thank you.*

Dr. Linn placed his hand on my upper thigh.

Okay. Where is Ansel when I need him?

Ansel ducked under the curtain saying hello to everyone except for me. Well, he just nodded.

"What's going on here?" He asks Dr. Linn.

"Just taking a look see. Have you and Shailene been sexually active in the past few days?" Dr. Linn questioning both of us.

Do I have to tell him about me being sexually active? I thought curling my eyebrow.

"No sir," Ansel says. "Shailene probably has, right Shai?"

I wanted to slap him so bad. "Dr. Linn, could we go ahead and finish this? Ansel and I need to have a talk outside."

Dr. Linn nods at me, assisting me with my pants. 

Saying thank you before Ansel and I left the room, I slam the door behind me.

"What the heck?" I exclaim. "Is this how you are going to treat me? God, Ansel I thought we were over this?"

"Seems like Theo isn't over it. Right?"

I don't respond, clinging in to his jacket collar.

"I'm sorry." I whisper. "When will you forgive me."

"THIS IS SO UNLIKE YOU!" he shoves me away, luckily I catch myself. "BE WITH THEO THE REST OF YOUR LIFE, SHAI. BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT GOING TO DRAG ME, NOR OUR DAUGHTER INTO THIS."

Ansel's face turns a bright red. The brightest I have ever seen.

"look who's acting all innocent," I retort. "You aren't going to judge me just because Theo and I hooked up. What are you and that sleezy girl doing anyways? Is she a prop?"

"I want the ring back." He demands. "Now!"

I look down at my ring finger. The diamond that dazzled on the stone was going to be no more. Gladly. I rip the ring off, almost throwing it at Ansels palm.

"Can I just say one thing?" I say before going back in the room. "Theo was there when you weren't. Just remember that."

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At Theo's apartment, I leaned my head against the wall. Starting out with a straight face, my expression downs into tears. Anger rising in me, I head to the kitchen. In the drawer was a knife. I clenched on to the handle.

"He's dead to me!!" I scream.

Memories... Memories we share.