Sleeping with a lie

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Breathe.

Just breathe..

I can't breathe.

Breathe.

Just, breathe..

Opening my eyes, I glare at the wedding dress itself. Damn, I was on fire. Mom tied the jeweled band around my wrist.

Clara carried Belle on her hip, bouncing her up and down.

"Belle has peed out more diapers than I can count." She sighs. "This baby doesn't have a bladder."

"Mom," I say from the mirror. "I don't know if I'm ready."

She turns around from the accessory table. "Ha, you're born to be ready. Theo is the one. You chose him, now he chooses you."

"The bridesmaids are already walking down the aisle. I have to go." She kisses my cheek.

Clara looks at me from behind. "My little sister. Awe, you're growing up."

"Clara..." I hug her with Belle in her hands.

Clara takes a look at poking out stomach. "How are you going to reveal the gender?"

"During our vows at the reception." I sighed. "Yeah. What if- I, fall over my own heels? Or the orchestra messes up?!"

"Calm down."

The timer ticks. It was go time.

Breathe, Just breathe.

The doors open.

Theo smiled his infamous smile as I was courted by Tanner. Midway down the aisle, I see a familiar face staring at me.

Ansel.

I shake it off, smiling again.

"Hey," Theo says as I'm out of reach of my brother.

"Hey."

"This is one of the coolest weddings I have seen in ages folks," the pastor joked.

"Dearly beloved, we are gathered her to celebrate the marriage of Shailene Woodley and Theo Trapatikis."

A/N PASTOR TALKS-MEANEHILE...

"I love you," I mouth.

"I love you too."

"Theo, the ring?"

"Of course," another ring is slipped on my finger, a much shinier one.

"Shailene?"

"Yes," I twist his ring on his finger.

"Theo, do you take Shailene Woodley as your lawfully wedded Wife, through sickness and through health and to love her as you both shall live?"

"I do." He says.

"Shailene, do you take Theo Tapatilkis as your lawfully wedding husband, through sickness and through health, and to love her as you both shall live?"

"I do," I lighten my voice.

"I now pronounce Shailene and Theo Tapatilkis husband and wife!!" The orchestra plays a mellow tune, as the crowd cheers and claps. Theo sweeps me from my right thigh, kissing me softly repeatedly. I press my hand against his chest.

I was now a married woman, and a mother of two. This is amazing.

_______

HAIM was invited to sing at the wedding, so they sung with the orchestra to the song, 'Holes in the sky' and also sung a a capella version of Stay With me.

I swayed along with Theo as we danced in the middle of the marbled floor.

"Can't you believe this?!" I exclaim.

"We're married, Shailene, we're fucking married!!"

"Do you have your vows ready?" I ask.

"Got them all memorized. Plus I have a song for you."

"A song?" I raise my eyebrows. "It sings."

"I'm an it now. New marriage, New nicknames. Cool, I guess." He laughs, touching the small of my back. "And you?"
"Not trying to spoil the surprise, but I am revealing the baby gender and how many during the vows." I say with suspicion.

He kisses me multiple times before being interrupted by my mother.

"YOO-HOO?! Love birds? Time for vows. Theo is up first. Shailene, sit your tush in the chair." She was obviously overjoyed, and a teensy bit drunk.

Theo backs away and makes his way up to the stage.

"Good evening, and hopefully you all have had enough to drink. But you know, who cares- it's not like we have driving, waking up the next morning, great sex, anything like that right?!" He claps his hands together making the crowd laugh.

I'm sat in a chair staring at his wonderful face.

"Dear Shailene, our first words were off a script. Immediatly, I was turned on by your looks. But being in a relationship at the time- it was hard to resist the urge to not stare at you from afar. Our first kiss... it was when you had our beautiful daughter Belle who I have came to a full conclusion to understand and love like my own. Now with another baby that is mine, I know we can make it another round. You have been battling in what seems like total hell, brain cancer. I've witnessed your ups, downs, the painful heartache to watch you in a lonesome sleep is terrifying because I don't know when-" tears run down his left cheek. "I will ever see you again. I promise myself everyday that when you die, I will take the role of you. The outrageously insanely, sexy, woman you are. Shai, when you leave this very earth, you will leave a trail of greatness behind. I love you." The lights dim, as a piano player plays the tune of 'Thinking out loud' by Ed Sheeran.

"Baby I , have been lovin' you," He sang soulfully.

I cover my mouth crying and laughing at the same time. Veronica rubs my shoulder.

"He's perfect." She whispers.

Once Theo was done, it was my turn. Mom helped me on stage.

"Theodore... where do I begin. Kissing you- Just to say, is like making out with a fluffy pillow...and the sex, the reckless nights. My uterus will thank you. Tomorrow will mark the first day of our marriage. And I'm excited to start a wonderful journey of children, and happy memories I will cherish forever... as long as I can. Weeks ago, I found out that my memory was slowly fading away. The cancer had came back in London. Sooner or later, I won't remember anything but a single word. I can't, I can't miss my babies walking, talking, saying bye as they leave for School. No one wants to miss their children become adults. Dr. West made it clear I won't live until the age of forty five. And I'd be damned if I did not say this one thing first. Theo, we are blessed to have twin baby boys."

Theo laughs, running upstage to hug me.

"LET THE PARTY BEGIN!!" I shout before being taken to the cake area.

Slicing our butter cream cake, I get cake all on his shirt.

"Ah, I have a way to fix that." Unbuttoning his tan tux, women and even my bridesmaids cheer when I rip his shirt off.
I licked the cake from chest, the crowd whooping and hollering. Theo left his shirt open, still eating more cake.

After the reception, Mom sent us to this hotel in Beverly Hills. Him and I made out the whole way there.

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