Sleeping with a lie

How long?

Ansel kissed my neck softly,  holding me close. I whisper i love you in his ear so many times that it became annoying. Outside our window,  cold rain splashed upon it.

"Why aren't you going to the premier tonight?" He asks me pulling off my undershirt.

"Because,  it's... Well,  I can't risk exposure."

"Oh really,  and maybe we should tell them we are getting married too!" He says sarcastically.

I hold his face. "Do you want to?"

"Shai..."

"I mean really. yeah,  the press will be shocked,  but maybe we need this."

"So we get married for what reason? The baby? Because that's when marriages go wrong my love," he filled in.

I nodded kissing him again and again, not stopping.

"Anyways,  how is Bella doing?"

Belle It's Belle.

"she doesn't kick as often as she used to. Maybe I need to change my eating habits or something." I rubbed my stomach.

"Shai,  why are we just sitting here,  halfway naked,  kissing each other like we mean it,  but why not go ahead and do the whole thing? Why not just do it?" He asks.

"that is what got us here in the first place." I point to my stomach.

***

Flashing lights beamed the limo as Ansel and I held hands loosely. We had to fake like we were a couple,  so the paparazzi wouldn't bunbard on us. I wasn't dressed, because I was getting ready to be put into the fabulous dress that my designer saved for me.

Ansel was in a suit and tie though. He sort of looked like Augustus.

I wish he could act like Augustus. I thought.

I covered my face getting out the car into the dressing room. 

Sooner or later,  I looked in the mirror and stared at my long black dress that looked ravishing on me. From what my designer says,  it makes Divergent pop. My makeup artist puts on smokey eye shadow,  and classic red lipstick, fluffing up my hair.

"Do you want to add more?" she asks.

I nod to more eyeliner and a little bit more eyeshadow.

"Good luck." she pats my back,  leading me to the back door. From there you would end up on the red carpet.

On my black dress I had roses pinned across my chest. It looked pretty,  but the pins were sticking to my bra. Ansel and I locked hands and walked out.

Girls and boys screamed out our names as we smiled and posed. theo was waved at me when he saw my dress.

"Group selfie!?" He shouts. The crowd huddled together as Theo,  Ansel and I turn face the crowd smiling. after our picture,  Ansel held my hand tighter.

"Shai! Shai!" a paparazzi interview called over. I walked over letting go of Ansel' strong grip.

"How are you?" she asks. The interviewer was extremely perky,  blonde- and had this wierd twitching thing with her eyes.

"Fine how are you?"

"Doing great,  great. I thought about this for a long time. Can you answer some deep questions for me?"

I glance around pretending to look at time. I shrug. Might as well.

"The cover of People Today showed you and Ansel making cuddling love on the wall. Did you actually feel any emotion doing it?"