Song: Oscar Lang: You
I met a lot of people I used to love when I was willing to love,
I was so desperately eager to care for people
I'd scroll through social media seeing people with these dream lives,
I wanted one too and was determined to make one
Little did I know mine would soon fall apart,
just like the ones online
It was never meant to be,
it was all for show
Cause sure I loved them,
but it was only to entertain the idea of being loved
I convinced myself they did,
but I was only to be kept around when everyone left
Like an embarrassment,
a secret
Suddenly I felt funny,
how could I have not known?
Because I didn't know myself,
I was only entertaining ideas so my head would leave me alone
My subconscious knew they'd leave,
it knew they didn't love me
It was my heart that didn't,
that's what scares me the most
Had I known,
would I have dropped them?
A question that still lingers in my head,
a secret I'll never know
All I know now is I choose myself,
I have myself till the end
I found myself at my lowest,
I lost my hobbies
I distanced from the good,
went head first into the bad
It all hit me like concrete,
a little of me leaked onto the floor
A part of me I won't get back,
for the greater good
