Song: Oscar Lang: You
I met a lot of people I used to love when I was willing to love,
I was so desperately eager to care for peopleI'd scroll through social media seeing people with these dream lives,
I wanted one too and was determined to make oneLittle did I know mine would soon fall apart,
just like the ones onlineIt was never meant to be,
it was all for showCause sure I loved them,
but it was only to entertain the idea of being lovedI convinced myself they did,
but I was only to be kept around when everyone leftLike an embarrassment,
a secretSuddenly I felt funny,
how could I have not known?Because I didn't know myself,
I was only entertaining ideas so my head would leave me aloneMy subconscious knew they'd leave,
it knew they didn't love meIt was my heart that didn't,
that's what scares me the mostHad I known,
would I have dropped them?A question that still lingers in my head,
a secret I'll never knowAll I know now is I choose myself,
I have myself till the endI found myself at my lowest,
I lost my hobbiesI distanced from the good,
went head first into the badIt all hit me like concrete,
a little of me leaked onto the floorA part of me I won't get back,
for the greater good
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