Song:
Sometimes I just get this random crushing feeling inside my chest when I think of high school,
oh how different you turned out to be
Everytime I get near this school,
I have to watch myself and what I do
God forbids if I even breathe the wrong way
Because of this the real me has been stripped away
Here lies this person who only exists to please others
Only one place makes me feel whole
That adds a spark I miss
But it's not real
You see none of the things I use to cope are
When it feels right or wrong,
It doesn't matter
While others are living this thing called reality
I'm stuck in La La Land
Filling me up with things fantasies
Im still insecure though
In this universe or the next
I'll never please myself
I'm not what I want to be
Life's like a point system for me
Just when I start to catch up the other team wins
Or even when I do win it doesn't matter
Because I'm not happy
I have all these choices I need to make and I'm sick
I'm sick of always feeling down
Down
Down
Down
Looking up at the world and all it has to offer
But like quick sand I can't leave
I wait for a hand to help me up but none offer
People look at me and leave
Then reality hits
No one is coming to save me
It's not there job too
It was mine to make sure I'd never fall this deep
