Song: Ruel - Say
I walk in,
and there they areThe faces of people around me,
yet their existence repels meI walk away,
searchingAs I'm walking I'm confused,
what am I looking for?But I still keep walking,
I have no control of my legsAs I make it up the hill,
it clicksI'm looking for that feeling,
the ones in my heart, chest, and mind all those years agoThe memories that made my heart flutter,
the loveThe memories that made my chest hurt from laughing,
the happinessThe memories that made me think of how lucky I am,
the gratitudeWhere did it all go,
not one single location in my headIt's impossible to pin it to one place,
only time could tell me I lost itScared of wasting more time,
searching for another way to get it backBut once I do,
will I ever really get it back?
What if I never really do?
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