Olivia's POV
"Olivia, do you want syrup on your pancakes anak?" nilingon ko si Mom ng tanungin niya ako mula sa kusina habang busy siyang nagluluto ng Japanese pancake for me.
"I want blueberry syrup po," nakangiti kong sambit ng silipin niya ako mula sa counter ng kitchen. She urged her beautiful smile and nodded. "Your baby might have a sweet tooth, puro sweets ang hinihiling sa akin eh," tumayo ako sa pagkakaupo dito sa living room at lumipat sa counter ng kitchen.
I watched Mom put the syrup on her fluffy pancakes, "Sa tingin ko din mom, haha" I chuckled and waited for my food.
"Oh, ito na ang cravings mo," hinain ito ni Mom sa harap ko na may kasamang strawberry shakes at white kisses chocolates. I've been wanting to eat this because of my cravings.
"Ito ang unang pagkakataon kong magluto ng pancake sa kalagitnaan ng gabi," umiling-iling nasambit ni Mom at hinubad ang apron na suot.
"Thank you, Mom, and sorry for waking you up for this," tugon ko at nagsimula nang kainin ang pancake na ito.
"It's fine, I'd love to cook for you and your baby cravings," she said and rubbed my baby bump gently, "kumain ka lang d'yan pupuntahan ko lang ang dad mo sa office room niya, baka hindi na naman tumigil sa kakatrabaho. Pag tapos kana kumain iwan mo na lang 'yan diyan, ok," I nodded at her and watched her walk towards dad's office room near the living room.
Naiwan akong mag-isa dito at inubos ko ang lahat ng ito na parang gutom na gutom ako ng buong araw. But I just ate lasagna 3 hours ago. Now, I'm eating again.
Habang kumakain napatingin ako sa repleksyon ko sa glass wall dito sa kitchen. I gulp when my red hair is gone, Mom just colored my hair yesterday into black and cut it into a short length.
Now I look like the old Olivia they know; I love this look because it looks like a fresh start. Because from now on, I'll be starting again and I'll be healed someday.
Hector and I might not be for each other but I know this baby will be the light in my life, and I want to give him or her the best of me. I want to be the best version of me for my baby.
For our child.
After eating, I put the dishes in the sink and wash them even if mom already told me to just leave them here. I can still do it myself. Umakyat ako sa kwarto ko pagkatapos maghugas ng plato. I closed the door and looked around my room.
I turned off the lights and took a deep breath. My heart always aches suddenly when I'm alone and when everything around me is silent. Hector never leaves my heart; he's always causing me small aches that bring a lot of sadness in me.
I opened the TV para may ingay sa loob ng kwarto ko at naglakad ako papunta sa terrace ng kwarto ko at doon umupo, pinagmasdan ko ang makitang na mga bituin sa kalangitan habang dinadama ang malamig na simoy ng hangin.
I was listening to the TV while closing my eyes and I heard this.
"For our international News for tonight, Director Christian Evans is back in service after the new Director Hector Evans stepped down as the director yesterday, Director C. Evans has named Davidson Hudges as the assistant director in charge of the New York Field Office. He most recently served as the special agent in charge of the Philadelphia Field Office." n-no.
I open my eyes because of that and slowly glance on the TV inside my room, "Mr. Hudges has served in New York several times since becoming a special agent in 2015, including his first assignment working counterterrorism cases---" para akong nabingi at bigla na lang ako kinain ng katahimikan.
