The Forgotten Goddess

The Kiss

TW rape, torture, saddness

I was a monster. I hurt my closest friend. I am a monster.

1st Person POV (Alexandrya)

It had been a week since the Shadow incident. I had been avoiding the entire team. Spending as much time at the Coffee Shop as possible. Carter and Michael had even let me spend the night at their house once, but I declined. 

*DING* The sound of the front door opening drew my attention. It was the same girl that I had seen before, the one that looked like Neveah. I smiled at her as she walked up to the counter.

"Hello! What can I get for you?" I ask.

"One large vanilla latte please." She even sounded like her.

"Coming right up! Can I get a name for the order?" I say. She looks at me for a second before saying

"Neveah." She smiled at me.

"N-Nev?" I say and she smiles even wider at me and says

"Lex?" I smile at her and nod. I run around the counter and wrap my arms around her.

"I finally found you. I've been looking for so long." She tells me. I make her coffee and we sit at a table and talk about the years spent apart. I tell her everything.

She tells me about how she escaped Hela's wrath and how she's looked everywhere for me.

We talked for hours. Eventually, closing time came around and we helped Carter close. She promised to talk soon and gave me her number. (A/N: I decided that she needed a phone and she does know how to use it quite well.) 

I walked home, happiness filling every part of me. I got back to the compound and immediately hid outside in the garden like I have every day. I can't stand seeing the team after knowing that I've hurt them.

"Lex, please, stop hiding. No one is mad. We miss you. Where are you?" Clint was looking for me.

"Hey, kid. It's okay. You don't need to hide." Tony was out too.

"Muñeca, por favor deja de esconderte. Por favor, regrese." (Doll, please stop hiding. Please come back.) That was Bucky. 

I slowly stood up, revealing myself, and was immediately tackled into a hug. 

"Geez. You scared me. HEY EVERYONE! I FOUND HER!" Clint shouted.

The rest of the team came over too, they were all relieved to see me. We all talked for a while. I apologized as did the others. Dinner came around and we all went inside. As I listened to the banter of the team, I realized I had missed this.

I told everyone about finding Neveah again and promised to introduce her to them soon.

~~~Time Skip (3 weeks)~~~

Neveah and I spent every day together. I had introduced her to the team. She came over for dinner. Everyone loved her. Thor and Loki were very happy to see her again. Bucky was glad to finally meet her. Everyone else thought she was amazing.

Today, we were out in the park, laughing and enjoying each others company.

"Hey, Nev. I have something to tell you. I should have told you this years ago, while we were still growing up, but I ran out of time. I'm not gonna do the same thing again." I said, nerves kicking in as I prepared myself for what I was about to say.

"What is it, Lex? You can tell me anything." She smiled down at me.

"I like you. A lot. I have for a long time." I told her. She smiled and pulled me into a kiss. One that was long overdue.

It was the answer to a question we had both been asking for thousands of years. I ran my tongue over her bottom lip as I deepened the kiss. We pulled away, breathing heavily, grinning like fools.

Her hand intertwined with mine and she lay her head on my chest.I held her close to me, not wanting to lose her again.

We walked back to her apartment. Cuddling on the couch, content to do nothing but that. I lay my head in her lap and felt her hands run through my hair. My eyes started to drift close and I soon let sleep wash over me.

A scream awoke me. I jolted upright and horror filled me. Two men stood there, a gun against Neveah's temple. I tried to use my magic to pull her away from them, but it wouldn't work. Dread filled me as my fingers ran over the collar wrapped around my neck.

A dark chuckle came from behind me and I turned around. A different HYDRA agent stood behind me. I instantly recognized him.

"Hey, sweetheart. Did you miss me?" It was the guard.

"You should be dead. You're not supposed to be alive." I whispered. He laughed.

"And yet here I am. Now I'll make this simple, come with us and she lives. You don't put up a fight. But you struggle or resist, and she dies." He sneered.

"Please, let her go. I'll go with you. Just leave her alone." I begged, I couldn't lose her again. He nodded at the guards.

They grabbed Neveah and left the room. I was dragged out to a black van and thrown in the back. The door was shut and I instantly curled into a ball.

"Lex? What's going on?" Neveah's scared voice came from next to me. I immideately uncurled and wrapped my arms around her.

"My past. I'm so sorry you got caught up in this." She held me just as tight.

The rest of the ride was silent other than the occasional sob.

When we arrived at the facility, we were both roughly dragged in. I watched as she was dragged to the cells. I was taken to a room I knew all too well.

"If you don't obey, she dies. Understand?" The guard asked me. I nodded, making sure not to meet his eyes. I prepared myself for what was next.

*TW RAPE AND TORTURE* 

I cried silently as he violated me. His hands touching me. But I didn't fight it. For Neveah. I knew that one wrong move and she was dead.

So I let him have his way with me.

After that, he beat me.

"This is what you deserve for running away. You bitch." He yelled as the whip cracked on my back. I didn't fight it.

He left me on the floor. A broken, bloody mess.

*TW OVER*

L-Loki, if you can hear me, please help. 

I sent the thought out, hoping he would hear it.

A/N: There's Chapter 36! I hope you liked it. I'm sorry it's so sad.

Love y'all! <3

Kari (pen name)