Wolfsbane

Chapter 20

Jamie

Connor looked up at me with a small smile playing on his lips as his hand reached up to rest on my cheek. His thumb rubbed the cherries of my cheeks. "Thank you, I needed that." He spoke with fondness in his voice making me smile as well. "That's what friends are for Connor. They tell you the cold hard truth even when you don't want to hear it. I promised I would do that for you and I plan on keeping that promise to you, no matter how much it will hurt." I spoke honestly. He sat up looking at me with fondness in his milky white eyes and a smirk playing on his lips.

"How about a movie?" I asked trying to keep myself from kissing him right then and there. "Sure, I'll make us something to eat and you pick a movie." He said before standing up and walking into the kitchen. Once I found a good movie I went into the kitchen seeing Connor on the phone ordering a pizza or two. "Im going to change." I whispered to him and went to my room. I pulled a pair of black shorts from my dresser laying it on the bed and then grabbed a large red sweater and threw it on the bed with the shorts before stripping off my dress and putting the night clothes on. Once I seen myself in the mirror I realized I still had makeup on and decided to clean my face off before going back down stairs.

As soon as I sat down on the couch Connor came down the stairs in a pair of thin pajama pants with thick black and white strips going from left to right and no shirt. His hair was still down and I was trying so hard not to jump his bones right then and there. There was a knock on the door and Connor went to answer it. One of the pack members stood there holding the pizzas. Connor passed him the money before grabbing the pizzas and closing the door. We sat down watching the movie and eating our pizza until I realized I had nothing to drink and I was missing something. "What do you want to drink?" I asked standing up and walking into the kitchen. "Guinness please." He yelled and I chuckled finding that was the only beer he had in the fridge.

After grabbing the things I needed I sat back down with Connor handing him his beer and pouring my ranch dressing in a bowl, dipping my pizza in it. "That looks so nasty." He said with a little disgusted face. Don't knock it til you try it." I said through the pizza in my mouth. Connor leaned over dipping his pizza in the ranch dressing and trying it. After a few more tries he had poured more in the bowl and kept eating it. "It's good." He said with a chuckle. "I told you." I laughed causing him to nudge me with his shoulder.

As the movie played on I would catch Connor sliding closer and closer to me and I found myself doing the same thing. Half way through it I laid my head on his bare chest and swung my legs over his resting my arm across his hips. I felt his hand rubbing softly on my back and his lips on the top of my head planting a light kiss there. I didn't want to say a damn word when the movie was slowly coming to an end but at some point we would need to go to bed but I just couldn't bring myself to say anything. "Another movie?" He asked after the credits rolled on our first movie. "You pick it this time." I told him and he grabbed the remote scrolling.

"How about we watch a series instead?" He asked looking at the Netflix list because he couldn't find a cool movie. "Okay but I think we should watch Reign. Olivia said it's amazing." I told him and he was quick to find it. After the first episode I was hooked and it seemed like Connor was too. There was so much going on and I felt for the main characters, it was like they were all my friends and I was just sitting there watching everything happen to them. "I think living in that time period would be so cool. I mean other than the whole 'females aren't aloud to love who they choose and men are only able to have land if they are born into it' thing, the time period looks so cool. Look at all those open woods that my pack could run through, we don't have that many open woods around here now." Connor said still watching the show.

I was trying so hard to keep my eyes open as the sixth episode started. Connor was still glued to the show but I on the other hand, was to tired. I threw my legs onto the couch and my back resting on Connor, snuggling into him further, he was so warm and comfortable. He seemed to understand what I was doing and pulled me onto his lap, letting me lay myself on his chest. After the episode was over Connor picked me up and took me to my bedroom laying me down on my bed after pulling the blanket down. He threw the blanket back over me and tucked me in, kissing my forehead and leaving the room.

The lights were off and I was so tired but sleep seemed to never come. I tried counting sheep, signing songs, I even pretended to dream but it wasn't working at all. I knew what was wrong but I didn't want to get help from Connor again. I feel like such a burden to him and the more I asked for it the more I feel like after he finds his mate it will cause a problem. Connor would never help me the way he does now if his mate was around. I mean his mate would think I was only trying to suduce him and try to take him for myself which isn't going to be the case whatsoever.