The Billionaire's Ex-Lover (Completed)

Chapter 5: Past

"Nasaan ka? Paggabi na." Tanong sa akin ni Alfrea sa kabilang linya.

Napabuga muna ako sa hangin bago sumagot. "Hindi na ata ako makakauwi diyan, bukas ng umaga nalang tayo mag-usap. Meron pa akong importanteng gagawin sa ngayon." Sabi ko, ang mga mata ko'y nanatiling nakatingin sa exit door ng hospital building. Baka sakaling makita ko pa siyang lumabas doon.

"Okay." I heard her sigh on the other line. "Basta mag-iingat ka, call us if you need back-up."

"Copy." I uttered before ending the call. Nahigit ko ang hininga ko nang makitang lumabas mula sa ospital si Cohen na mayroong sumusunod sakanyang isang babae na nakacoat din, gaya nang kay Cohen. If I know, isa lang din ito sa nagkakagusto kay Cohen.

Pumasok sila sa kotse at saka iyon pinaharurot paalis. Dali-dali akong sumakay sa sarili kong motorsiklo para sundan sila kung saan sila pupunta, hanggang sa makarating kami sa isang building kong saan pumapasok ang gustong magpahinga doon. Hotel.

I stopped my motorcycle infront of the Hotel. Not far from where he parked his car. I saw them wnet out of the car and the girl wrapped her arms on his as they entered the Hotel.

My heart shuttered at the view. It feels like my heart was stabbed many times. Slowly, I felt the anger boiled inside me. I clenched my fists the thought that they'll do something inside the hotel.

Iyan ba ang ginagawa niya simula noong hiwalay kami? Kung sino-sino ang ikinakama?

Pinatatag ko ang loob ko saka tumalikod at inayos ang helmet ko sa ulo ko. Hindi ko siya pipigilan...for now. But sooner, I'll trap him in my arms. I'll hurt him, I'll take back what's mine then I'll kill him merciless. 

That's it, it's my job.

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I stared seriously on the wide yellow-blue gate, it was closed. But I know, pupils were inside their classrooms.

I can wait. I have to wait.

Seconds turned into minutes, minutes turned into an hour later, students went out with their parents and yaya's. I look at them with a jealousy in my eyes.

I admit, I also want to have a complete family. That's enough for me to feel happy.

Nakuha ng tingin ko ang isang batang babae na luminga-linga sa paligid, ang labi niya'y nakanguso na para nang maiiyak.

Napadako ang tingin niya sa aking ulo hanggang paa, doon kumunot ang noo niya habang nakatingin sa akin. Her dark brown eyes glistened and her mouth was left hanging open.

I cleared my throat before looking away.

"Gracious! Thanks God! Angelique Bethany, I was looking for you?! Where did you go?! You made me worried!"

"Mommy-La, I think I saw..."

That was atleast I heard before I left the school. I shook my head while I'm on my way to the bar, where I'd found it peacefully for me to drink alone.

"Can you recommend something for me to drink?" I asked the bartender. "The strongest one."

She leaned forward to whisper something into my ear. "Got another problem?"

"Psh! Just give me a drink that I've been asking for, bartender." I shot my eyes at her.

Umismid siya kapagkuwa'y inayos ang kulot na buhok at may kulay purple pa amg buhok niya. "Don't call me that or I'll kick your ass out off of my bar, woman."

I smirked at her before putting some ice in the glass. "Try me."

Inikot niya ang mga mata niya saka kumuha ng isang bote at itinaas iyon. "A perfect alcohol drink to wash your bad mood, perhaps." She poured the alcohol into the glass before she tossed it with me.

"Amanda." Binigkas ko ang pangalan niya ng mahina.

"Hmn?" She asked while looking at the iPad infront of her. Maybe she's stalking some guy again, that's what she've been doing, dating different guys but in the end... She'd always hurt.

"Hindi ka talaga titigil sa kakahanap ng mapapangasawa mo?" Nakangising tanong ko.

Sumimsim siya sakanyang wine saka tumingin sa akin at isinara niya ng tuluyan ang kanyang iPad.

First day ko palang noong five years ago dito, nilapitan niya ako noon at siya ang may-ari ng bar na ito. Noong una ay walang halos tao dito, kasi nagsisimula palang siya. Sa katunayan nga ay tinulungan ko siya, may alam din naman ako sa pangalan ng ibang alak at may kunting alam ako sa negosyo. Dito sa mismong bar niya ako nakilala at dito nagsimula ang friendship namin, siya din ang tao na tinatakbuhan ko kapag kailangan ko ng mapagsabihan.

Instead of telling my siblings what are my problems, si Amanda ang tinatakbuhan ko. Hindi ko alam kong bakit ako sakanya agad nagtiwala na kung tutuusin ay hindi ko siya lubos na kilala. Siguro kasi ang gaan ng pakiramdam ko sakanya kaya kami nagclick.

Katahimikan ang namayani sa pagitan naming dalawa hanggang sa siya ang bumasag niyon. "So how's she?"

Itinuon ko ang pansin ko sa baso na hawak ko para makaiwas sa tingin niya. "Hindi ko alam kung sino iyang tinutukoy mo..." Mahinang sambit ko.

"Oh come on, Cean. You knew whomever she is. Don't be so naive. She's your..."

"She isn't!" Pagtatanggi ko.

"It's been years, don't you think? You've been too selfish. Don't you forget and accept..."

"Forget and accept what?!" My voice boamed in her bar. Good thing it's only the two of us inside the bar. "Amanda, you're my friend so I am rooting you not to remind me of my f*cking past! Alam mo, hindi mo alam ang pinagdaanan ko kasi hindi mo pinagdaanan iyong pinagdaanan ko. You crossed the line this time and to tell you these, I will not forget and accept everything that was happened to me in the past. Hangga't nabubuhay ang babaeng iyon. Isa siyang kasalanan."

"Cean! Sumusobra ka na ah!! Alam ko na alam mong hindi mo siya itinuturing na isang kasalanan!"

I smirked at her before turning my back against her. I'd rather leave here than we would be talking about my horrible past.

Hindi iyon ganoon kadaling makalimutan at tanggapin sa akin ang nangyari dahil ang lahat ng iyon ay isang bangungot sa aking buhay.

Alam niyang ayaw kong ibinabalik iyong nakaraan pero patuloy parin niyang ibinabalik, para ano? Para makunsensya ako sa babaeng iyon? Nasasaktan ko man ang babaeng iyon physically at emotionally pero mas nasasaktan ako, hanggang ngayon ay dalang-dala ko parin ang sakit na aking nararamdaman.