Justice

Entry 6: Safe Space

I was ecstatic after my visit with L. Talking to him and spending time with him made me forget about how anxious I was feeling, and I felt we had become better friends after that. I had grown attached to him, that if he somehow went away, I would be sad. We both knew of the bond that was forming between us. 

Over the next few months I maintained my focus on exams and the investigation. I was attending university, studying Criminology. I also spent time with my friends to have more distractions. Half of them had a crush on my brother, which was something I was used to; everyone was attracted to Light. At least people were blissfully unaware that his charisma was all part of his evil plan.

I was afraid because I didn't know where he was going to strike next.

"Are you okay, Saki?" my friend Koharu asked, we were on lunch break and I guess I had zoned out. "Huh? What?" I snapped back to the present. "You have been staring into space for the past five minutes," she observed, she looked at me with suspicion. "Just overwhelmed I guess," I shrugged and tried to focus on eating my lunch; which was a bento box. "Finals Week is the worst." Koharu said with sympathy. "You got that right," I sighed.

Days went by like a ticking clock and I went about them like I was on autopilot. Light was taking a girl named Yuri on a date and he was planning on taking her to the amusement park.  I could tell he was trying to take the suspicion off him. He wouldn't let anyone catch him, even if it meant taking more lives of anyone who got in his way. Light was hell bent on getting what he wanted, and I knew better than to cross him. Even though he couldn't hurt me, that didn't stop my fear.

Months later...

I had just turned eighteen, and to celebrate, I wanted to spend time with L again, this time without working the investigation. It seemed like when I thought of him, he wanted to spend time with me.

"Hello, Aina, I'd like to take you somewhere tonight to hang out," L said in his formal tone. I grinned, "Sounds like fun Ryuzaki, I'm free at 7."

  We decided to go see a movie together, and he reserved the movie theater for the two of us. Watari accompanied us of course, but he sat in the row behind us so L and I could hang out. We shared popcorn and candy.

There was a moment where I leaned my head against his shoulder because I was feeling content around him; he didn't know what to do at first, but then he wrapped his arm around me and he softly stroked my hair. I smiled at his touch and with his other hand, he held mine. I was falling in love with him. I was a little nervous because I was worried that I was too bold in my affection. Turns out I had nothing to worry about.

We looked at each other; he touched my face gently, his fingers were cold. The months we spent together helped us grow closer and develop a bond that only we understood. Even though I was seven years younger than him, I felt like we could make each other happy. I wondered if he knew it too.

Something told me that L was super nervous. "What's wrong?" I asked, stroking his hand that was holding mine. "I've never had a connection with any girl before." L said with shaky hands. I smiled, and held his hands to calm him. "So you've felt it too?" "Yes, the more we've spent time together, I felt something between us. Something more than friendship." he told me. "Ryuzaki." I beamed, and I felt my cheeks turning red, which caused L to touch my face again; his thumb caressing my face. He smiled sweetly at me, and he kissed my hand like a gentleman.

"Saki, I love you." he whispered with a shaky voice. "I love you too, L." I whispered. The words were said so effortlessly and it wasn't a nerve wracking feeling like I expected it to be, it was freeing. "So much," it felt like a surreal experience, something that felt both real and unreal. 
That moment was when we shared our first kiss. Since it was both our first kiss, we were both nervous, but we stopped the kiss; looked at each other, and then resumed kissing. The stressful thoughts were completely gone, they faded away and a wonderful energy remained. L's lips were soft against mine; I softly kissed him back, touching his face. I couldn't have imagined a better first kiss. I'm grateful it was with the love of my life. My forever.
I snuggled up against him after the kiss and he kissed my forehead. I smiled up at him, and he smiled with a smitten expression, "Where have you been all my life?" "I would ask you the same question," I sweetly flirted. We cuddled as we watched the rest of the movie together; throughout the rest of the movie, he would occasionally kiss me on the forehead and sometimes we would face each other and kiss each other on the lips. He held me close and stroked my hair softly. "You mean everything to me." "You're my whole world." I was glowing with happiness at his affection. I was in bliss.