Jensoo- Love Inevitably

"Claiming Jisoo "

JISOO'S POV

"Ahjumma, have you had your breakfast already?"

"Please take this."

"I'm really sorry this is all I could offer you." I asked meekly while I carefully put the tray with tea and a sandwich on the center table opposite to the couch where Dr. Shin was sitting. Trying to be as casual as possible, I cleared my throat softly while trying to deepen my voice but my attempt was an utter failure cause my trembling voice was clearly betraying me.

I never understood the connection that I have with Dr. Shin but every time I'm with her, I would always feel a very familiar feeling that I can't quite get.

It's a mixed feeling of happiness... of longing....

and pain...

And it's making her act and speak differently whenever she's around..

It's mind-boggling to be honest.

Have you ever met a complete stranger and felt that kind of connection over that person?

Like somewhere in the deepest corner of your heart, you could feel that you already knew that person?

Like she was a part of your past?

Like a comforting and familiar feeling that you only get from a mother or a parent..

It's a consoling warmth that makes you feel safe.

But it frightens me..

Cause I never want to get used to that kind of feeling again only to end up watching those people I depend on, walk out on my life again.

That's why I swore on my life that I will never rely on any one ever again..

"Jisoo." I suddenly heard Dr. Shin spoke softly while she gently held my hand which brought me back to my senses. I looked at her and the middle-aged woman smiled faintly at me as if she could see what's been running through my head.

"Is everything alright Dear?" she asked with genuine concern and I gently shook my head and avoided her gaze.

"It's nothing Ahjumma, just been busy with work lately." I alibied but Dr. Shin just stared right into my eyes and read my bare soul.

"You know you can tell me everything, Dear."

"I know you've been going through something these past few weeks and you can't lie to me Jisoo."

"I can see it in your eyes." she mumbled seriously and I can't help but look down, having a hard time comprehending how the hell did she know me that well cause it's true, I've been going through hell lately.

These past few days have been really hard for her.

She avoided Jennie for a over a week which has been a real torture for her.

All the harassments and hate that she's dealing from anonymous people online.

It just won't stop that she feared that Ryujin might find out about it and it would affect her again which she fears the most.

Yeah she's been kind of silently dealing a lot lately..

"I know whenever you're sad Sweetie." she continued and I intuitively looked up to her with furrowed eyebrows which she responded with a warm smile.

"I guess some things don't really change." Dr. Shin smiled again while she intently looked at me but her eyes looks a little sad.

"Your eyes, they always tend to look down whenever your sad, or hurting or lying."