POV Haziran
« I don't even understand how it's possible... » I sigh in despair, resting my forehead against his chest.
« Really ? » He repplies, surprised. « Because that's what happens when you have sexe, you know ? »
« That's not funny... »
« I would have tried at least. » He responds tenderly.
« But you're right... » I sigh. « And we talked about it, you and me. »
« What about exactly ? »
« The risk of getting pregnant despite the pill, because it's not 100% effective etc... »
« Ah, yes, the day after our wedding night. »
« Yes. And we decided, with full knowledge of the facts, not to use condoms. » I remind, annoyed. « I'm so stupid... I never imagined that the pill wouldn't be effective this much ! It's only been 6 weeks ! »
« It must be said that we really make love a lot. »
« Thank you for this brilliant remark, we can say that it helps us a lot. » I ironically say, pulling away from him. « You know, I... I promise I didn't forget any of them. »
He frowns, staring at me with incomprehension : « I beg your pardon ? »
« My contraceptive pill, I have never forgotten it. I even have a damn app that reminds me to take it at a set time and as long as I don't check the box, it keeps reminding me ! »
His gaze softens as he puts his hands on my hips, pulling me back to him.
« Breathe. I know, okay ? I believe you. And I'm not blaming you. »
« I don't want you to think that... »
« Think what ? That you would have forgot on purpose in order to get pregnant and trigger a panic attack ? »
Yes, okay, seen like that necessarily...
« No. That you think I was careless when now I'm terrified of the idea. »
« Even if it was the case, I wouldn't blame you. » He assures. « Technically, we're both responsible, no matter what. »
He places a kiss on my forehead and I feel the tension in my body ease slightly. I relax slowly, closing my eyes.
« How do you manage to have so much patience with me ? » I ask in a whisper.
« Look at me. » He asks.
I open my eyes again and fall into his beautiful hazel-green eyes.
« Because I love you more than anything. »
« You want this baby, don't you ? » I ask in a shaky voice, dreading the answer.
He sighs, taking the time to choose his words : « Not if it's going to make you unhappy. »
A mirthless chuckle escapes me as I take a step back : « That doesn't answer my question. »
« What do you want me to tell you ? »
« The truth ! Do you want this baby, yes or no ? »
« Yes, I do. »
I nod slowly.
« And now ? » He inquires. « What do we do ? How do we decide ? »
I shrug my shoulders and he continues :
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Married Life - Through ups & downs
RomanceStory about the dizi Ada Masali and its couple Poyraz and Haziran, played by Alp Navruz and Ayça Aysin Turan. This fiction take place after episode 13, if PoyHaz really did married.
