I didn't realize everything that you have done for me until I had gotten older
As a kid, I never saw how hard it was to raise yourself, to raise me, and support a mother who refused to be there for us.
When I ask you how raising me had affected you, you say that you would do it ten times over again if it meant I could have a better childhood than you.
When you tell me this I want to cry, because I know that it's not the truth, because I know that you wish you could have saved me from the one thing you didn't see coming.
I know you're not telling the truth because if I could've done it all over again I wouldn't have lied when the social worker asked me about my mom, I would have said no when they asked me if I was comfortable going to live with that family, I wouldn't have allowed them to give me back to our mother. I would have told the truth if I knew everything that was coming at us.
I see your pride in me standing up to our abuser after 17 years because I know that you wish you could do the same. I know that you wish you could have spent you college years living carefree instead of working overtime to pay bills for a house you don't live in.
For what you have done for me, I will forever keep in my heart and search for a way to make up to you because now that I really know, I want to cry. To cry for the boy who had to have nothing for a girl to have everything.
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A/N: Dedicated to my guardian angel- You mean the entire universe to me.
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Poetry Portfolio
PoesiaI've got a lot running through my head, I suppose I should write it down. Poems I have written- just decided I may want to share them.
