My Twin Flame

Chapter Seven

"So how did things go with Vanessa last night?" Shelly reached over to turn the music down.

"I don't know, it's like we don't even talk anymore all we do is yell. I know there is something going on with her. Did you know that she doesn't even talk to Julie anymore? I am her mother, how did I not know this?"

"Maybe she can't talk to you."

"What do you mean? She can always talk to me."

"Honey it's no secret to any of us that you are always stressed out. Maybe she just doesn't want to add to that stress."

"So running off like that, having police call me, that's not adding stress? Do you see why I have no interest in dating? When do I have time for that? I don't even have time to shave my legs." I pull my pants leg up. Shelly turns her nose up in the air and mimics a gagging sound.

"Honey the natural look went out in the seventies. Maybe if you were dating and got laid once in a while you wouldn't be so stressed!"

"Honestly Shell, you did not just say that. With everything in my life sex is the last thing on my mind. Not to mention with the lousy sex I had with Elliott for twelve years. I am not even interested in it anymore."

"Ok so there is no such thing as a reborn virgin! What do you mean twelve years you and Elliot were married for fifteen."

"Yeah that ship sailed out about two years before the divorce. Between work, kids, and his traveling there was no time. Not that I minded, Elliott wasn't exactly a lion in the bed."

"Really, if it was that bad how did you put up with it to make three children."

"Wine, lots of wine! I just don't see the point to all that love shit, and sex is just a chore in it's self. SHIT!!" I yell so loud I cause Shelly to swerve into the other lane.

She smacks me repeatedly in the shoulder. "What the hell is wrong with you?"

"You don't think Vanessa is having sex with this boy do you? I mean that would explain why she thinks she is so in love with him! Being her first? Trust me those types of guys have a way of polluting your mind to believe you're in love so that you will give it up."

"I wasn't in love my first time, I just thought he was sexy. But no I don't think that she's had sex yet. Or at least she hasn't told me."

"What do you mean told you, why would she tell you if she's had sex?"

"Well don't flip a gasket, but she called me the other day and asked a bunch of questions about dating and boys and stuff."

"And you didn't tell her to talk to me?"

"No I didn't Brooklyn, because she didn't think you would support her or understand her. Frankly with this hating love, men, and sex thing you have going for you I don't blame her."

"I don't hate love. I just don't trust it any more. It is foolish to think someone could feel that strongly about another person, it just don't happen."

"It does happen, it just didn't happen with you and Elliott and I know you're going to get pissed off but that was more of your doing than his. I told you when you found out you were prego with Vanessa not to marry him. I told you, you weren't in love with him."

"You're nuts Shelly I was always faithful to Elliott!"

"I didn't say unfaithful, I said you weren't in love with him. You cared about him but you didn't have that spark."

"Well that spark you're speaking of doesn't exist."

"It could if you would allow it, I mean come on honey I understand you're a mom, but really when do the t-shirts and yoga pants get put away for the party dress. You look like a frumpy mom all the time. You don't even wear makeup anymore. That's part of the reason I wanted you to go to Fiji so badly. So you could relax and find you again."