Forever Trapped

Chapter 15

First date, hinatid lang ako sa bahay.

On the second date, dinner was good but the date ended with that meal. I brought my car and it seemed like Phoenix had no plans of inviting me over. Well, I do have every intention to stay over or invite him to my place. That time, talagang inaasahan ko na siyang magsalita but the guy was just peacefully having his meal and said goodbye like he was in a business meeting.

Business is not over yet, ang sarap lang sabihin. I thought that was the second date lang naman but this time, I will invite him over and will not let any loopholes happen. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang gusto niyang mangyari but as much as I enjoy talking with him and spending time with him which was fine, no problem with that, ay may mga gusto pa akong gawin. I made it clear the moment I told him about the arrangement I wanted. He agreed. Siguro naman ay pwede akong magtampo kung bakit over the span of two weeks, the last kiss I had was the one I initiated during our first dinner together.

I don't sound like myself and I'm not acting like myself. I hate this and I hate Phoenix for making me feel this way.

Kaya ko namang wala siyang pinaparamdam but he's such a distraction! I can't even work properly with the thought of making out with him and him not kissing me, all that shit is in my head. I sound so desperate right for crying out loud.

Phoenix

'Busy?'

'Not really. Why?', I replied.

'Dinner later?'

'Sure. Susunduin kita or will you just bring your car?'

'And where?'

'No need. Let's just have dinner at my place.'

I know what I'm doing at sana naman, he'd know it too.

I prepared a nice dinner which I haven't done for a guy before. Si Phoenix pa lang din ang unang bisita ko dito. I have not even invited Cynthia and Mikee over because we're all busy pero eto na ata talaga iyong sinasabi nilang pag ayaw, maraming dahilan. Pag gusto, hahanap ng paraan.

I took a nice long bath, relaxed, and cleaned myself thoroughly. Kahit dito lang kami kakain, I still put on light make-up and of course, perfume. If only there's a scent that says C'mon. Kiss me. I'd choose that right there and then.

"Hi," I smiled at Phoenix who looked like he was just from work. "Come in."

"Good evening," Maginoong bati niya pa sa akin. Oh, no-no. He's not playing that role tonight kaya nang lumapit siya to kiss my cheeks, I tilted my face so he'd kiss my lips instead.

I smiled cheekily and didn't say anything.

"You can put your things on the sofa or the table in the living area."

The table was all set. I just cooked some spaghetti. Hindi naman ako magaling magluto so I thought this would be convenient. Wala naman akong plano na mag-flex ng skill na wala din ako.

"How was your day?"

"It's my day off today so I just relaxed. Did some sketches, played a movie, and prepared dinner. Chill day."

He smiled pero gusto kong matawa sa confused look niya. I'm more cheerful and energetic than my usual self. Naninibago siguro sa akin. It even took him more than an hour to send me that Okay. See you. when I invited him to eat dinner.

"How about you?"

"Just meetings for today. Quite tiring. I don't really like negotiating. Thank you for the food, by the way. It looks delicious."

"Nah, it tastes normal. I can't really cook well. Don't expect too much."

He chuckled. "Thank you for preparing. I really appreciate it."

Oh, you can thank me later. I wanted to reply but I just smiled at him and ate the so-so dish I prepared.

"Tulungan na kita," he even raised the sleeves of his polo.

Itinabi ko iyong mga plato. I didn't want to clean the dishes but I was trying to channel the confidence I had earlier. Bakit kasi bigla na lang nawala nung matapos na kaming kumain? Ugh, nakakainis. "No, it's okay."

"You prepared the food. I think it's only fair that I clean the dishes."

We are talking about dishes yet in my head, I'm swooning over this man. Nakakainis talaga.

"Please?"

What the hell. I never thought he has this kind of cute side but he's acting adorable right now. I just tried to act irritated and rolled my eyes but moved aside so he can wash the dishes. I sat on the side of the countertop. He didn't say I couldn't stay here. At isa pa, this is basically my place. I should be making my own rules and rules include I can stare at this hot guy washing the dishes.

"Thank you." Sabi ko matapos niyang hugasan ang mga pikanggan.

I straightened my back when he walked in my direction and stopped right in front of me. He wasn't saying anything and I wanted to stare back at him like I always do pero nakapako lang ang tingin ko sa mga butones ng suot niya. Should I just turn on the faucet and throw some water at him just so I could find some excuse to unbutton that shirt?

My eyes trailed up to his neck where I saw how his adam apple moved. It made me look at his eyes. Each split second that passed, his face is an inch closer to mine. His hands rested on the countertop and I'm in between, kind of trapping me. I'm not complaining at all.

His warm lips finally landed on my lips. It didn't take long but damn, the wait has been long. I'm not really the patient type pa naman.

It also didn't take long for him to deepen the kiss and I just slightly opened my mouth, welcoming his tongue. I like that he's taking control, which by the way surprised me. Parang kanina lang ay nagpaplano pa ako kung ano ang gagawin just for him to freaking kiss me.

He never did. I was always the one who initiated the kiss and now that he's doing wonders with his lips trailing down my neck, I'm suddenly okay. All I had was speculation on how much he liked me.

"Oh..." I moaned as I tilted my head, giving him more access as his lips traveled down to my neck down to my chest, and back to my lips again. The straps on the spaghetti dress I was wearing were already on my mid-shoulder part exposing a part of my breast. I wasn't wearing a bra, not really caring kung bakat ba ang nipple ko kanina. If it's not obvious enough, I've also given a lot of thought to what I should be wearing tonight.

Dahan-dahan kong binaba iyon nang hindi inaalis ang tingin ko sa kaniya. I wanted him to know that I want him and if he really wants to go, he can walk through the door but not without a good tease.

Oh whatever, I'm not letting him. Not tonight.

His lips were slightly parted while I undressed. My hand reached the first button of his shirt and removed it and seconds later, I smiled when he unbuttoned his shirt too.

"I was wondering if you'd make some kind of lame excuse."

"Not tonight, Zahara." He removed his top and I had the chance to look at his body. I was already expecting he would look really good and muscular but it's still different now that I'm seeing it, and it's even within arms reach. "Just so you know, the waiting was torture for me too."