All alone, or so it seemed (Justin Bieber)

8. "Just a kiss."

Justin and I pull away and look up at Mike & Nat. Really? They had to walk in RIGHT NOW? Ugh. No luck.

Nat looks from Justin to me. And again. And again.

''Are you guys gonna explain, orrrrrrr?'' she asks.

I blush furiously as Justin talks. ''It was just a kiss, Nat, don't make such a big deal out of it.''

Great. Just a kiss, huh? Well, that's awkward. I thought it was more than just a kiss. I felt special. I'm so stupid, ugh. He's just playing with my feelings, isn't he? What am I supposed to do now? Well, I guess I have only known him for like a little while. A really little while, actually. I nearly laugh at myself. Of course it's not like there are feelings involved.

''Yupppppp.'' I lie.

''Okay, whatever, next topic, please.'' Mike says, winking at me. He knew I felt uncomfortable. I nod at him as a thank you.

''How was it yesterday?'' Nat asks. ''Did you guys go outside?''

I nod slowly. ''We did.'' I nearly start to cry again. Great. Why can't I ever just talk about something like a normal person. Why do my eyes have to betray me. wHY.

Justin continues. ''We ran into Trent, and it didn't go peachy perfect.'' he says.

Mike looks at me, worriedly. ''Knowing Trent, of course it didn't.''

I chime in. ''It didn't go at all.''

Mike and Nat look at each other and then at me. ''Are you okay?''

Am I okay. Am I okay. That's a good question... Am I?

I look at them and shake my head. ''I'm not sure.'' I answer honestly.

Justin fills Mike and Nat in on what happened after we ran into Trent. ''We went back to the apartment after Trent harrassed Ashley. Ash experienced a flashback and a panic attack. So I stayed the night.''

Nat's eye brows perk up. ''Ah, that explains the kissing.''

''No, it doesn't. But it does explain why he's here.'' Mike replies.

Nat looks at Mike and shrugs. ''I'll take it.''

I laugh at her response and look at Justin. He's laughing too, thankfully. It takes away a bit of the pressure I'm feeling. It feels as though a weight is lifted off of my shoulders.

Justin speaks up. "I have to go now. Work."

I nod and Nat speaks up.

"Let's have a game & movie night tonight! Wanna come Justin?"

Justin answers quickly, whilst putting on his jacket and waving goodbye.

"Definitely! I'll be here at 7. See ya!"

When he's gone, Nat looks at me again, carefully examining my face.

"So.. a panic attack? How long had it been?"

I decide to answer honestly. "Like a week?"

Nat looks at me worriedly. "Where do these attacks come from, Ash?"

My eyes get watery in a split-second. "I just keep reliving situations with Trent."

"He's destroyed me... forever." I add.

[a/n] I'm aware that this is a really short update. But don't worry, the next chapter will be up very soon. As in DOUBLE UPDATE. Aw yeah. Enjoy haha.

X Lisa