A woman's dream

Chapter Two

Hinilot ko ang aking sintido dahil biglang sumakit ang aking ulo sa pagbabasa ng financial reports.

Ipinikit ko ang aking mga mata at ipinahinga ang ulo sa sandalan ng aking upuan.

Marami naman akong tauhan sa negosyo ko ngunit gusto ko lang talagang maging hands on sa pag handle nito.

Habang nagpapahinga, hindi ko maiwasang balikan ang nangyari noon, limang taon na ang lumipas.

I was 24 years old when I met the Senator. He was still running for the position that time and was the youngest who ran for the position at the age of 31.

We met in an art exhibit by a common friend and that's how it all began.

I planned to just come and show support to my friend and then go home because I am not really fond of an art exhibit.

But, that changed when a charming man came in.

I was watching one of her friend's painting when a man stood beside me and asked about the painting.

That's where it all began..

We talked the whole night and was not able to mind the time.

Even after the exhibit, we continued our talk in a coffee shop near the place.

We talked about my life. When I graduated college and about my likes.

And he was able to share that he is currently living with his grandmother since his family is in the US.

He was able to share that he was running for a position in the government.

I got curious and asked about his plans on why he ran and was awed by how spontaneous and smart he was.

After that night, we even asked for each other's contact information.

We continued seeing each other but he said they have to be discreet kasi ayaw nitong masira ang privacy ko.

Until we fell in love. Or that's what I thought.

Few months of being together was very amazing. No fights, no quarrels.

He was also very sweet and will always remind her how amazing she was.

That same year, he won and became the senator.

I was very supportive and was very proud of him.

He was my first everything. First love, first kiss and first sex.

I actually treasured everything about him because I also felt that he really loved me. Or so I thought.

Until one time, someone called me and asked if she can see me. At first, I don't really want to come because I don't know the person who called me.

But I felt something... I was nervous and agitated and I don't know why.

Still, I went and see her.

Turns out, she was the senator's wife.

The wife was very kind, she even apologized that I was fooled by his husband.

I was not able to respond and just sit there, crying.

Not just that, he also came and was very shocked when he saw me and his wife sitting in one table.

She stood up and slapped him so hard that we even caught other people's attention.

But at that time, I was not really thinking about my reputation. I was busy thinking about how he fooled me.

I want to shout at him, slap him hard too bit I was really weak so I just sit there and watch them.

She said she will file an annulment and God, he kneeled in front of his wife. And that broke me more.

What about those times he said he love me? Did he just use me? Ginawa lang ba niya akong parausan?

Hindi ko na natiis at umalis ako sa restaurant. Bago ako makalabas, nakita kong maraming tao ang naglabas ng cellphone at nag video.

Umiyak ako pagkapasok ng aking sasakyan pero pinilit kong paandarin ito at lumayo sa lugar na iyon.

Pagkauwi ay nadatnan ko ang aking mga magulang sa sala at halatang hinihintay ako habang nanunood ng balita.

Iyon pala, nasa TV na ang mukha ko. Ang bilis ng balita.

Ang masama pa doon, maling impormasyon ang ibinalita nila.

Hindi ko alam na may asawa ang senador, dahil kung alam ko lang, hinding hindi ako papasok sa sitwasyon na ito.

Nakita kong umiiyak si mama at kita ko rin ang sakit sa mga mata ni papa.

Doon ako mas nasaktan.

Yumakap ako sa mga magulang ko at doon ko iniyak ang lahat. Ang sakit, ang galit at ang pangamba.

Nang mahimasmasan ay nagpaliwanag ako sa kanila na naintindihan naman nila na hindi ko intensyon ang manira ng pamilya.

Napagdesisyonan din namin na lumayo muna ako kaya't kinabukasan ay pumunta akong Cebu.

Doon ko rin nalaman na buntis ako.

I suffered from depression while pregnant and that was the worst. But I managed to be strong. I did not even think of aborting the baby because I considered it as my sunshine, a new start.

Ang hirap noong unang buwan pagkatapos kong manganak because I also suffered from a post partum depression.

Ngunit nakayanan ko lahat ng iyon.

Hindi alam ng senador ang tungkol sa bata at mas pinili kong hindi sabihin dahil ayoko na ng gulo. Tutal, kamukha ko naman ang anak ko. Lahat nakuha niya sa akin at walang bakas na magsasabing anak ito ng senador.

Kung malaman man niya, ipapakilala ko. Ngunit hindi ako papayag na kunin niya ang anak ko sa akin. Lalaban ako kahit patayan para sa anak ko.

Selfish oo, ngunit sa laki ng gulo na nangyari noon, ayoko nang maungkat ang nangyari at madamay pa ang anak ko.

Hindi rin nagparamdam ang mga kaibigan ko pwera nalang sa bestfriend ko simula pagkabata.

Siya iyong nandoon noong panahong gusto ko nang sumuko. At nagpapasalamat ako sa diyos.

Siguro, blessing in disguise ang nangyari dahil nakita kong hindi lahat ng tao nag s-stay.

They will only stay if they can benefit from you.

That's the truth but also a hard pill to swallow.